so blessed____________________ 9:14 PM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I am lonely.
Can u see?
No one visits my blog and care abt my life anymore.
No one tags, except myself.
No one want to know how I m dying away.

Bleed-

so blessed____________________ 5:19 PM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Prelim starts in 5 days' time and I only studied a little for ss. What is this? Time seems to fly so fast. It's like teachers have been giving us tests and tests and homework till got not enough time for my "dearest" ss revision. Sigh. I really wanna do well for prelim. I dunno. I just think I m undecsisive. I suddenly feel like going JC, but I need to work super hard. Regretting now is useless. I just need to continue to trust in God for everything that I do.

Thanks Agnes. I think I need to forgive my geo teacher. Maybe she had her reasons why she said those mean words to me the other day. Maybe I should just love her instead.

Anyway we took our grp pics without haivan :( She has been mia for quite some time already. quite worried for her. sobx


taken by rafidah (:


I know we are crazy

so blessed____________________ 4:14 PM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

stayed at home the whole day today. r u proud of me? wahaha.
did some homework and a bit of revision.
the rest of the time, [[slack]]
but i do fell the stress
prelim is really drawing nearer and nearer

i wanna try to be happier

[[addicted to u like a drug]]

so blessed____________________ 10:20 PM

Friday, August 19, 2005

can u not be so petty?
everything's not right.
i just wanna run out of this house
run away from this heartless world
let me sleep and nv wake up again

bye

so blessed____________________ 9:00 PM

Thursday, August 18, 2005

homework piling up
revision not done
stress
empty
lonely
hollow
sick
time is running out
and i m still struggling
-studies killing me!-

i walked down this lonely street alone.

so blessed____________________ 6:40 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Didnt go sch today again. Feel so bad cos it's RACHEL'S bdae!She is one of the member in my gang u noe! how can i not go to sch? Blame it on my weak stomach and my hot body.

Had4 periods of F&N yest mah, then abt after 2 periods, my stomach started to do funny things. so painful! on and off. i endured till end of sch though but didnt go for geo mock test. miss tan accompanied me to tell mrs raja that i m not feeling well and unable to take the test, then mrs raja's eyes were so big. crazy one lor. then she was like didnt believe me, she thought i didnt prepare for the test. her head lar!!cos i didnt take her test the other time too after pe and head was giddy. But so wad i didnt take the other time and yest? is really studies more imp than health? so heartless. wad if i faint? really yest was horrible. luckily miss tan was there with me if not i don think mrs raja would let me go lor. then after sch went to see doctor. didnt noe i was having fever. 37.8 degree! it's really been long since i haf fever. lols. then dunno wad the doctor say. maybe i will haf wad infection inside my stomach. also dunno. then went home to rest. no appetite, no energy.

Today woke up stomach still a little pain and a bit of headache, so decided not to go sch since i haf 2 days mc. hopefully i will feel better later. so much work to complete too.

Ok end here for now. so lonely at home. haha ___

so blessed____________________ 8:51 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

63 days to O level

Had English o level oral today. Not that bad I guess.
Haha, I had been doing sit-ups every nite with santi (my childhoowd friend).Guess she is helping me to lose weight.lols.
Yesterday after church, finally we took grp pic as girls tertiary (:
We went to have lunch, and had fun chit chatting, then we started singing songs from older generation to older generation, haha.. so fun.. even on the way home kept singing, then ppl in the bus was looking at us. lols
Tml GEO mock test. Gonna study soon.
bye-

so blessed____________________ 7:14 PM

Friday, August 12, 2005

Got back chinese o level result.
B3-
i hate it.
Still i m giving back to God if this is the result that He wants me to get.
I dreamt i got A2 (twice) and last nite I dreamt I got B3. sigh.. why must i dreamt i got B3?? And now really came true.
I know many ppl are dissapointed with me, esp my mom. sigh. i noe i m dissapointed with myself too! this is not what i wan! i shd haf done much better! i tried so hard, at the end still like this. maybe is really God's will bah.
I dunno wad i m grumbling abt... the whole sec 4 level, mostly ppl scored this grade, but why am i not happy? WHY?!!
BUCK UP!!!

so blessed____________________ 11:05 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Happy Birthday Singapore! Hee` finally holidays for 2 and 1/2 days. I didnt go sch on Friday cos had headache in the morning. Haha. Had really great rest (: one good news!!! my good friend, yc( not yi chin) received christ on Sunday!! Yey. This is always the time when i rejoice~ so many ppl were saved too on sunday. We had a special speaker, oh beng kee with us who was really very funny and great sermon we had (: Yea :p~ I'm loving it!! Oh then after service we had new comers lunch and hee. realised i still didnt noe alot of things even though i've been in cnl for 1 yr :p

This year's celebration for national day wasn't that fun compared to last year. Yea, but we had the leadership handover ceremony which was really cool and I realised so many of my juniors are actually so great leaders (: Many of them took over the position of being presidents of their respective ccas, councillor or psl. GUYS I M SO PROUD OF YOU! cont to bring glory to the sch (:

After celebration, HY,Rachel,YX,Fidah and me went to watch seven swords at j8 and met alot of ppl there.lol. Not bad bah. was quite dissapointed cos our dearest THE MAID (review) is mid nite, so no choice watched seven swords.. fidah fell aslp lol.. After show walked a while, fidah left, accompanied rachel to get her dnt stuff then headed home le. so tired.

Today I M GOING SENTOSA! Chill (:

so blessed____________________ 9:04 AM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Finally I m sick. lol.u must be thinking "vina is crazy.." lols yea i m cos days haf been so crazy in terms of studies and other things.and now i get more rest ever. hee. yea. still, i miss sonic fest on sat when our church gals danced, they were really cool! they really danced their best that day for God, esp shang min. lols. she looked so pretty and really first time i see her dance till like that. so much improvement from the time she danced during the 1st youth service this yr :p

I'm really happy that my friend, is a she, speaks out more now and she seems really happier. Really hope she will feel more secure from now on. :) I really love her alot. No one can take her away.lols.

And one thing, my childhood best friend is HERE in sg! Yey, 2 yrs didnt go back to indo and so much things have changed. really miss my friends over there, next yr they will be all over indonesia or other countries already. sigh. i will be going back to indo for abt 1 week to make my passport after o, and i can see them again! yey.

Prelim is getting nearer and nearer. Kinda scared now. And my chinese o level result is coming out on 11 aug if i m not wrong. shucks...

But GOD is good. He is always here for me. Thank you Lord (:

so blessed____________________ 5:18 PM