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Monday, June 27, 2005

Elder bro is back from Melboune on saturday. And Anita is back from Bogor on Saturday too =)
Really happy Anita and her mum came to my church on Sunday, and can really feel that she is back to worshipping Him again. Really thank GOD! She may want to stay in my church. It will really be great if she does =) She said the worship in hope and cnl is different. She said ours is more depth, allow us to go deeper with God =) Yea i feel so too. really hope this will let her grow her faith in God again =)
Then after church, we had fun at Thiong Bahru plaza. Watched Initial D (for me again :p) haha. yea.. and her mum too. shopped around and stuff. The feeling to see her well again is so great! Praise GOD! =)

Today first day of semester 2. KInda dragged myself to school cos I just feel that i had not enough of holiday!! Well, have to face the reality. hee. Not bad I think. The funny thing is chinese lesson. We haf this new teacher from china, she talked a little, then played s.h.e and jay chou songs for us to hear. lols. yea.. After sch had netball training. didnt bring attired, so slacked during netball.. haha.. yea the training was tough for them i think.

Wanna Praise Him forever and ever =)

so blessed____________________ 8:13 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Must watch INITIAL D!

so blessed____________________ 4:25 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

I'm 17 yet still behaving like a little kid.
I'm 17 yet my thinkings are so childish.
I just want to be a mature gal.
I just want to do things that I should be doing.
I want to be a useful person.
I want to let them know that I can do it.
I know I have a happy family and they love me.
But why can't I prove to them?
Why can't I just sit down and study?
Why can't I just treasure this family
And be grateful?

I have friends who are suffering and struggling now
I knew roughly how they felt and how they are trying to get free from the situations.
Yet I just don noe how to cheer them up,
Cos I m not having this type of problem.
I mean I m not trying to show off that i m very lucky,
I just want to let them know that I care and I love them.
To let them noe that God is our true Daddy.
To let them noe that God's children care.
But tell me... How can I comfort them?

Friends.. I do care.. =)
Teach me to grow uP!!

so blessed____________________ 8:49 PM

Monday, June 20, 2005

It was me who thought too much. Things were not as complicated and as I thought and I m very sorrie for those who worry for me. I m fine now ( I guess) and maybe cos of all these things, I could not worship properly yesterday. Maybe I should not worry, I should always rejoice in whatever situation that I m in. Yes. I shd be like that! I want to be faithful, I want to be strong. I know people cares for me.

Phil
4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

pastor kent preached this yesterday.
1)Respond with right feeling,
2) right thinking and
3)right action (:
And I guess yesterday's words were for us, I mean many of us. Yes. Am so encouraged and spurred up again (:
And what I m happy abt was that I prayed for most of the sec 1s gals during alter call cos Agnes wasn't there (:
I felt the pain for some of them and I cried too. Maybe this is what God mean by love for your sisters, maybe this is what God wants me to do. To heal any broken relationships with anybody that I had hurt or they had hurt me. Yes. Fellowship is very important!

I made the right choice and now I m being trained to be student leader in church (: And I got so much more to learn and I m so so thankful that God has put so many ppl in my life where I can fail and stand up again. (:
I want to be with my daddy (:

My dad bought me a new fone.Oh ya yesterday was father's day too :)
I bought a v cool looking calculator that he eyed when we went out on saturday. He asked the salesman to get for him but the salesman took v long so he decided to come back later on after he got his clothes.So i "sneaked" to the place and got him the last piece on the shelf. haha` the salesman helped me to "lie" to him when he came back. "Oh I m sorry but it has been sold out" the salesman told my dad. Haha!! then we exchanged smiles cos we had succeded!! lols.. and yesterday I gave him the present with a card made by me!!

Both daddies.. i love u ((:

so blessed____________________ 2:16 PM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

I hate myself for these reasons..

1) I've been slacking this wk
2) For being so emo
3) For ill-discipline
4) For not spending much time with God.
5) For going out too much
6) For being so sinful
7) I want to love myself!!

so blessed____________________ 9:54 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

Ghost train is not a nice show.
So don't watch.

so blessed____________________ 12:20 AM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Psalm 36:5 5 Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.

1 cor 1:4-9
4I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. 5For in him you have been enriched in every way—in all your speaking and in all your knowledge— 6because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you. 7Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. 8He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
~1 Corinthians 13:4-7

When will we realised the meaning of love?
When will we apply it in life?
When you say I love you, do you mean it?
If you do, why do you keep record of wrongs, angry so easily?
Why do you not correct me when I am wrong?
Why didn't you correct me?
you know me
you know my character.
you know i can't do things properly.
why didnt you correct me,
leaving me to think so much
thinking that you hate me
i know i should not think this way
but i just cant help it
i know you are not treating me like how you treat others.
i am jealous even though i noe i shdn't be
cos God loves me
God's always the one that i shd seek
but why..
why do i feel this way?

O Lord, teach me, guide me. I am just so hopeless. I am so discouraged. I am useless.

Don't ask me what had happened, cos I know you should know yourself.

I just feel so lost.. Why am i always being cheated with the meaning of love? Why do i always being trapped in love?
If you really love that person, please show it with action and not just I love you. I am always cheated and fooled by the words. I only know and believe God mean it. His unfailing promises, his unfailing words always comfort me, yet I m so disturbed by humans' words, humans' promises. Promises are meant to be broken
I know this.. but i just..

It's been long since I've felt this way.
I thought I am happier now.
I thought everyone loves me.
But because of the incident,
my heart is shattered into pieces
shattered, waiting for the healer
to make it whole again.
No,it's not abt BGR
It's abt a relationship that God wants us to have.
Fellowship

I am drenched with tears.
I am drenched with tears for you, sister
I treasure this relationship,
Do you?
If you are, I just don't feel it.
I always feel that you dislike me.
Do you wish that I leave?
I can do so if you want.
I am so sick and tired of this.
I don't want to think anymore...

*peace*

so blessed____________________ 9:28 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

[sunday]
service was grt :) I led the sec 1 gals today, hard to control, but i had fun,i guess. yepp.. just lack of being "firm" with them. I've made up my mind. I want to be grateful, to priorities my time and to be faithful for the future ((: I will be tithing this sunday!!

Had lunch with sm and linda while others went for sound cls. had grt time together. haha. sm, rem ur secret jokes? lolx. hmm.. yea then we waited for sound cls to end cos wanted to go sentosa, at the end changed plan cos was too late, so we went to marina square there had dinner and went ice cream! we had grt time together (:

But one thing.. sigh.. it was just me that think too much.. but somehow i just envy why others can get along so well with her but not me.. sigh..

[monday]
stayed at home the whole day today. supposed to do some work, yes i did but most of the time i slacked. oppsx.. i dunno.. just slack.. sigh...

so blessed____________________ 9:07 AM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Today went to pay for my brother's flight tix, then we had ushers outing! it was really wonderful and great outing we had :) first we had lunch at mac grt world city, then ice breaker and briefing, after that bowling at kim seng plaza!! it's really fun!! and i proudly show u my photos with shannon! i love her so much!! finally we can take pics together. hehe :P

yea. and to judy, loo yee, shangmin, cynthia, agnes and other leaders!! thanks so much for all the hardwork, effort and wadeva u had put in into this outing! without you ,yes, YOU!, this outing would not be possible! yey!i love ynl!!

after the outing,went tp collect photo then went for cg leaders training.. a little bit tiring yet fun (:

tt's my saturday :)

oh oh!! Anita is discharged yest!! she is back in indo now.. really thank God and thank everyone who prayed for her. God ans our prayers!! yey!

so blessed____________________ 11:31 PM

Friday, June 10, 2005

Aye~yest had meeting at Agnes hse for the outing tml,before that we had dinner then they gave me a suprise!! I was like so .. haha.. dunno wad to sae. yepp.. am really touched gals, so sweet of u all :) And yea after meeting and stuff, agnes became the china town "tour guide" had ice cream and then walked around some streets. really a great nite I had :)

so blessed____________________ 10:45 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

I had a sweet 17 bdae this yr :) Received unbelievingly tons of wishings and presents which I used to haf when i was abt 5 or 7 yrs old. This year's my best bdae i had ever since i came to sg 8 yrs ago. really. thanks people. (:
H2R2VY in action yest. went cine, took tons of pics, watched movies and had lots of laughters. for photos, please refer to my friendster. thank you.

bye.

so blessed____________________ 2:35 PM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Guess wad? I M finally 17!!Ouch. sounds so old yea. Anyway I am going to haf a blessed birthday this year with God :) Yes. and friends out there, thanks so much for staying up so late just to be the first one to wish me thru sms. (too bad u all were not the first :p) haha.. but yea.. am really touched for being loved and cared for :) And i guess my greatest wish this year is to see my dear friend, anita well again :) yes! She's well again!!

I really hope from today onward, I can be more mature (cos the fact that i m 17) lolx. yea.. anyway gonna go school for now and celebrate later! :)
see u

so blessed____________________ 7:54 AM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Salvation Is Here
by Hillsong United
album: Look To You (2005)
God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me

so blessed____________________ 4:42 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

Ok.I will be blogging a long entry today (i hope)

Anita's condition is getting better and better each day. Praise the Lord!!!
Really am grateful for those who care and for those who prayed for her. From this I can really learn and realised how a sister-brother relationships in christ is like. (:

Had the cell grp leader training course on saturday (aft visting anita). Was really great course I would say :) Am really looking forward to more things now.Yeap. oh forgot to say, yhope pastor jeff came in the morning too. Am really glad that he was there cos he was the one that prayed the sinners prayer for me back when i was in yhope! :) Also, i can really feel Joy's love for Anita as a sheperd.

Yesterday's worship is real fun! Yea. After service went home to catch some sleep. *yawnz*

Today went to bugis with afong :) Still am tired. wanna slp

feeling pig now lar.. dunno why.. hmm.. ya.. and my eye is swollen cos i guess not enough slp or something.

Hmm.. yea.. this week's kinda packed up for me too

7th- a math tuition
8th- bdae :) going out
9th- meething for ushers outing
10th- a math tuition
11th- outing and cgl training
12th- service and sentosa with olyna!!

yey
gotta plan for my studying plan too.. bb

so blessed____________________ 5:13 PM

Friday, June 03, 2005

Finally I m updating.
Yea.. just came back from hospital cos i went to visit anita and thank God with his grace that she's recovering already.
Hmm.. yea.. her cg ppl came too and am touched and encouraged by their care and love for her. Gotta noe her care group leader, denise and also her sheep, mabel.yepp. reall happy :)
Yea.. hmmm.. yest was fidots bdae. we went snow city which was not fun..then went eat at jurong point. Then went to visit anita.
Had not been sleeping well these few days. Yea.
I m turing 17 in 5 days time!! Yea!

so blessed____________________ 11:46 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

A new month.. Here's update of what has been happening recently before I leave for sch.

1) Found out he was playing with me. He was stepping on 2 ships! Thank God I broke up with him first. If not i would get hurt deeper. Yeap. We're over!!
2) Anita is not in good state now. Gonna spend more time with her.
3) Gotta go back sch for 1 wk for xtra lessons.
4) I m turning 17 in 7 days time!! (hint hint*) joking
5) Will be studying hard this June hol.
6) More outings will be held :)
7) I will be trained to be cell grp leader!! Yey
8) Anita will be coming my church!!
9) I love my friends.
10)I m free like a bird!!

-_-" I know.. lols.. kk.. gotta go for now/.

so blessed____________________ 6:06 AM