&&It's her

Friday, May 27, 2005

Well I sacrificed this relationship cos I love God more. I want to obey Him. I want to be what I should be doing now.
I just feel that being single rox. Really. With my friends around me. Without m is also the same. It was my wrong decision to be with him. I want to be a student leader! Yes. Am so relieved after sending the sms to m. Yes! I m free like a bird!!

Anyway update update!
Had chinese intensive revision for the week. Was boring, yea. And today rox! Had the deyi star semi-final. Am dissapointed with how james performed. But happy for the contestants who entered the semi final :)

Yea. Monday chinese O level!!
Aft that study!!
And Holiday!! :)

so blessed____________________ 2:15 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

trusting and believing is all i can do
cos i love u with all my heart and soul with no other reason

so blessed____________________ 10:09 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

Me feeling better. so much better after all the crying, all the thinking, all the complaining, all the grumbling...
now things r fine. we so called sort things out. we met up today and I m so happy (:
oh one thing. I had completed my coursework which had to be handed in tml!! Yay
I believe and I noe we will last and my bdae this yr gonna be a special one. hehe :)

to shan:gurl--|| really thank u for being there for me, for ur advices and sharing of experiences :) I really feel that we are getting closer and closer, yea :)

to M:i love u for no reason (: I still remember this day 14o5o5 :) May God bless us and we will last --||

so blessed____________________ 8:01 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

carved ur name on my wrist with a penknife cos i miss eu badly
ya sounds so depressed right? Indeed I was very depressed last few days. So much things was on my mind, but i learnt one thing, trust. How can things move on without trust? How can I live without trusting God? I believe God will be there for me, it's just I need to pray and cry for him. This is wad i need. I need to repent too. I had been so obsessed with so many un-impt thing, excluding M. Chinese O level is just like 9 more days and I havent really study cos of rushing stoopid coursework!! Hais. Maybe M is helping me out with giving each other some time to do our things. After O level then can meet. I guess it's good too.. I need to study!!! However I m worried abt M cos he doesnt noe how to take care of his health! arrggghh

Anyway yest was our school ooc. Not that bad i guess. I was one of the people doing heritage corridor duty. Yea. Not that bad i guess. Everything was alright.

At least I know and realise that M cares. Yes he does. (:

so blessed____________________ 3:30 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Why am I thinking so much.
Nth has gone wrong yet I thought so much.
I messed up everything
I messed up the beautiful things.
I just cant help it
but to break down and cry
crying like hell
no one bother to noe
no one cares
including u

sorry, i noe i shd trust u
i noe i shd be able to wait
till the day when we will meet again
i'll try to wait
i'll try to not think too much
i'll try to hang on there
till the day comes..

i heartx u v much...

so blessed____________________ 10:42 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Now in comp lab doing f&n coursework. So sian lar. dun feel like doing yet have to hand in NEXT TUESDAY for o level!! *scream*
These few days have been very sweet days for me (:

Old chapters were closed. A new chapter begins :)

140505

so blessed____________________ 11:47 AM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Guess wad!! I passed my english!!! Wee~ the painful part was about the part 1 (compo) the marker said my content was great but my grammar was lousy, that was why my mark was so lousy. Sigh. Anyway yea.. gonna work hard from now onward i guess. F&N coursework due in 2 wks time. wah real stress doing it.

New begining.
Treasure it.
Be sure.
Of Love.
Be sure.
Of what.
I want.
It is.
Luv.

so blessed____________________ 11:27 AM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I'm burning fire inside, if u noe wad i mean.
Got back most of my results. Sigh
Only happy for my chinese.
Feel like giving up in all that I m suppose to do yet I remember God's teaching.
I guess I m gonna try one last time for my prelim and O level.
S^3 here I come~!

And please. It's so obvious I did not feel like talking to you and why do you still continue talking and telling me things to do? I wanted to scream!!! Yet I knew I shouldnt be. I controlled my temper.
And please. You are not at the position to tell me things!!!

Bleah*

Had photos taken for Netball team today and had fun i guess.

I think and I feel.. maybe I should stop going to 1/5 that often anymore, they just shouldnt rely on me that much. Eventually I will leave them due to my busy schedules. But I will miss them real much. A bunch of heaps of fun ppl there where they can make your day even if you are in foul mood.

What else can i say?

so blessed____________________ 6:30 PM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

My mood and temper has been very sucky these few days. why? cos of her. ever since she came to sg, wad she did each day was scold and nag. think wad? i no feelings issit?i have okae!!! Just a small matter and she made it so big.
Haix. Lord, I m sorrie but to complain. I just cant take it anymore.Forgive me for being like this.

Good news to share.Panther Netball got champion!!!
Keep it up gals. I knew i was a little mini player for the tournament cos i knew myself I sux at netball even if my cca is netball. Suddenly, my passion is back, maybe cos I just feel that I love netball and that for the first time I could play so well for the game. Keep going girls!!!
I want to be back for training,I want to treasure every moment of netball training, even though I m so small in the team.

Oh i watched Kingdom of heaven today wif hua yee and hi van. It was nice. Nc 16 though.

And one last thing. I m angry with someone. that someone always.. hais.. dunno wad to sae anymore.

peace-

so blessed____________________ 7:06 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Tell The World That
by Hillsong United
album: Look To You (2005)
Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

(tell the world that Jesus is great!)
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yes! I m back to my normal self ( i guess)
I just love the feeling to be happy again
to be able to smile and laugh again.
thank u lord for ur grace
for ur great heart
for forgiving me
no matter what i done wrong
for things i shdnt be doing

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I m coming back to the heart worship..

so blessed____________________ 6:33 PM

Saturday, May 07, 2005

cried
i cried
i cried for some reasons
i cried for some reasons i noe i shd not be crying for
i cried for some reasons i noe i shd not be crying for, but i just cant help..

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had cell.

so blessed____________________ 7:06 PM

taken when we were waiting for mrt to come. {Photographer=Rachel Foo}

my mommy's mother's day present by his beloved daughter, vina :p

so blessed____________________ 12:41 AM

Not fated= cannot be forced

Today was great i guess, i mean yest since its over 12 am now. Morning went to collect my mommy's mother's day present opposite sch, waited for my sec 1s for almost half an hr. oh well.. had some fun there though.

Then went back to tp to get some books for mommy, rushed home but maid wasnt there, so left the things wit her friend at the hse, then i rushed to meet rachel, hua yee, fidah and yin xin and hai van at j8 cos we were intending to watch a show. Oh on the way saw a singapore actor whom my family always say look like my uncle. oh well..
At the end we watched intepreter which is considered chim for us lor.. dunno why but i guess it was quite nice, then as usual, took neoprints! Wait till they send me. muaha..

Rushed for frammie's bdae party at his uncle's condo the club hse. at first still thought wad club (suaku lar) haha.. but was really great. I enjoyed myself real lots even though i was a little distracted by things i was thinking in my mind. Yepp
Reached home around 10++, then i found out my sis and bro gave mother's day present already, so decided to give lor..

Till then..

so blessed____________________ 12:24 AM

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Guess wad??
Mid year exam is OVER! Yeay`Still happy flunking the last 2 pprs. lols. guess i m a little bit out of my mind yea. bleah* i m enjoying myself.
Today after my pprs, stayed back for a while to teach my sec 1/5 math then went home slacked, abt 7 like that met up with my darling loo yee at orchard, walked aroun busy looking for pressies, at the end didnt buy cos we didnt find suitable pressies.. well.. haha.. slacked a while and talked alot, after that i came home and here i m.
tml will be more exciting! Yey

[[Mix feelings
Suddenly I am so confused
Over what has been happening
Over something
I just cant describe the feelings
Why am I thinking so much
Waiting for what
Waiting for something that is not possible
Mix feelings
I m feeling terrible
Inside]]

so blessed____________________ 10:52 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

2 more papers to go and I will be free for the time being!! yeay!
I think I m definitely going to be in s^3(self study session) Well.. wad to do..
Stayed back in sch to study a little yest after a math. Only got in a little of what i m supposed to study for. Reached home studied a little and not much.. that's all..
cant wait for tml!!

so blessed____________________ 3:33 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Went swimming yest and today.
The feeling was good.
Been so long since i last swam. I think is months. (:
Had a good rest on sat and today.
Will cont studying tonite i think.
I found out one thing
And cos of this
I will con't to study hard
Without thinking anymore.
No more distraction.
Church today and finally graduated from sch of sheperding!! Hehe`
Yeap. Had tough time handling things today.
Till then`

so blessed____________________ 7:22 PM