&&It's her

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Wanna thank God that Anita has been discharged from hospital today cos she got dangae fever on Saturday. Anyway yea.. After sch yest i went to visit her, before that I went to meet up with Gabrie(my god-rbo)l for a while.When I look at him,I was unsure of the feelings inside.. yea.. it's been months since I last met him. He has changed so much, I guess in a better way. I guess he is coming back to Deyi to cont his studies, I pray that he will be a new person, a new start, a new life that God will give him. I really hope that he will grow up to be a useful person. A person with success. He will always be remembered in my heart. Anita, I was so shocked to noe abt the news abt her being hospitalised. So it's like the whole day in sch i was not in the mood to pay attention, mind was thinking of her. Am really glad that she's alrite noe (: that's partly the reason why i didnt go for training again...

Anyway I finally ran for PE.. the feeling's really great to be able to run again. 2 km run.. 2.4 km run is next monday. Well, i guess I gonna leave this to God. I will depend on his power and strength (:

Finally handed in my F&N development. It's really tough task I can say. Yea the frustration period is over I hope. Cos within this period of time, ppl kept asking me abt the development thingy when they themselves don't pay attention in class, honestly i detest this! I know I m selfish, but TOO bad cos u always take advantage of me.

We had practical exam for F&N today. Was alrite I guess. My yam rice was partly burnt, but I managed to cook it and Hua yee and Rachel ate it! Haha` Yea. Not that bad I guess. And the stupid thing is HOUSE meeting. I really dunno why we want to have this meeting. I just find it meaningless and useless. I would rather attend lessons that are boring. Yea, nevermind.

It's been really long since I wrote such a long entry, and i think I should express more of my feelings, instead of wearing a mask everyday, trying to Lie to myself abt things. Well, yea.

I think this should be all that I want to write for today.
Gotta study.
Buck up!

so blessed____________________ 4:44 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2005

~~U're backie`~~

A great Easter day (:
First time I spent Easter day with Family of God.
The Feeling is really great!
I WILL WORSHIP U ALL OF MY LIFE.
NEVER WILL I LET U GO...
JESUS, MY GOD, MY SAVIOUR, MY FRIEND.

so blessed____________________ 5:47 PM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Yesterday was great. First had tuition with Yin Xin for A math, then went to haf dinner with my darling Denna, then proceeded to tanjong pagar mrt there with Rachel, Denna and Hua yee cos they came for the special service. So happy` really a great service. Then had fun introducing them to ppl in church. wahaha` reached hm abt 11+ 12 like tt.. very tired..

Today staying at home to complete my work and do some revision, plus chinese tuition later. Well.. my life so far is great (: So happy and thankful for what He has done for me :)

Happy Belated Good Friday (:

so blessed____________________ 1:03 PM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

-fidah and me taken inside toilet! o_0

so blessed____________________ 11:05 PM

za bo family *winks*

haha today was really fun :) But let me first write abt yest.. Had terrible leg cramp after running a short distance for netball, so didn'd do training and also cos it was rainig suddenly, so was cancelled in the middle of training. Well, tests are really coming up more and more each week and days. Hope to cope better.

So happy today (: Firstly, lessons were not taxing as much, supposed to have geo test, then was cancelled cos of fire drill, but sadly we still had it during cme period, just wrote a lot of rubbish. wahaha. hmmm.. yea chem practical was fun i would sae. then went for PSLs gathering (: Don't give up yea? Everthing will be alright and rem wad Mr Jo told us? yepp.. i lorve PSLs to bits. And yea.. so wad did we do.. hmm.. had captain ball games, water bomb games, skit stuff followed by BBQ. really had lots of fun. Haha alot to write ler. but lazy, really. I love the photo on top. It's my za bo 'family' photo.. wahahah.. kk..

Tomorrow will be more exciting.
Till then.=

so blessed____________________ 10:37 PM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Oh I went back to sch today. The feeling is kinda weird cos I missed out so much yest. Omg` Nvm.So I flunk-ed my Amath test [again] with a lil improvement. kinda happy for myself cos I did revision..at least i improved, right? haha` Lessons were alright but terrible cos I was feeling drowsy, thanks to the medicine from the doctor. Sadded. made me so sleepy and not much mood to pay attention in class. Well well.. F&N was fun, we made shux pastry and strawberries mushe(is tt spelt likt tt)? haha nvm. Tasted not bad I guess. After skul slacked a while in sch then chiong-ed down to get medicines for my grandma, daddy and aunty at mount elizabeth hospital, then chiong-ed met tina at serangoon then went home.Did alot of work today (:
Alright, darling looyee, i noe u're reading this.muahahaha. My legs are better now (: Oh yea.. I m addicted to the song RAIN DOWN too!
One thing, I nv sae u're petty or anything.. pls pls.. don't think that I got negative feelings for ya yea? plsss..I always want to help you yet u feel like this.. u noe how hurtful is it?? {being hurt by yew for the first time}

so blessed____________________ 10:44 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

I m a sick pig today. Muahaha` Yea. Whole body is aching and having flu, headache,cough,sore throat and cough.How terrible is that? This morning woke up, went to take a bath then like the whole body no energy, decided not to go sch. Went to see doctor and got 2 days MC. ahah` My legs are still aching like mad.But it's okae (: I got lots of things to complete today I guess.

so blessed____________________ 11:12 AM

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Wow` i want to go again! The synegiz is really really rox! Esp the planet shakers concert. Praise God! Lots were saved yesterday. (: Had great great time with my fellow sistas having fun worshiping and joking around(abt me!!)hmmmpp..jkjk. Haha yea. Planet shakers rox!
Just came back. Feeling tired, yet good (: I'm nv tired! hehe` had fun agan(joking abt me yest) shall not mention here, if not everyone will bully me.lols.
Yea. dreading to go back sch. It's like such a short break. My legs are wobbly now.lols.then its like tml pe and training!! oh no!!!
-peace (:

so blessed____________________ 3:18 PM

Friday, March 18, 2005

I thought I would be late for flag day just now cos I woke up late. kekex. So i chiong like mad by taking taxi, who noes i reached there like 7.39 am? -_-" Anyway had fun with friends(Simone,Fidott,Hidaya,Hui fen, celeste, rachel,yinxin,nurimah)doing the donating thingy,except for Ang Mos! They are really heartless and stingy!! Every ang mos that I asked, they didn't want to. Well, nvm. Alot of ppl donated for me (: Yea, halfway thru, went to ps to slack and at the same time went to visit mrs ong again (: haha` bought some stuff.. It was tiring though walking around asking for donation. At first I really detest the feeling when ppl kept asking u for donation, but now.. hehex.. it's really different i guess cos I was just now.. just dont like the feeling of being rejected. Well, nvm. Had really fun day yet tiring.<3

Yey!TML I M GOING FOR PLANET SHAKER'S CONFERENCE!!! body 'itching' lols. jk.. wanna gooooooooooooo!!

so happy to see u today.. walking pass is enough...

so blessed____________________ 6:50 PM

Thursday, March 17, 2005

So tired` haha` out the whole day. sort of 'sneaked' out
Went for first time for another A math tuition. Was not bad I guess. I learnt intrigation (:
After tuition went Lido bought tix for Hitch cos Anita came later. Was really funny i tell u :p
Then Anita and I went to far east the burger king there to sort of catch up, then we went to meet Kriss and Steven. The funny part was Anita was suppose to become the tour guide, then she kept leading the wrong ways. lols. then Kriss was so bad. kept making fun of her lols. We went to the dunno wad Asian museum near clarke quey there . The statues were very scary i tell u. Got shocked like mad.lols Anyway yea, we left not long later to walked around and chatting and talking rubbish, till the whole body aching and almost 'died' of dehydration. jk.. ahha.. yea.. took train to doubhy ghout and then went our seperate ways.
Hahaha` i WANT TO GO PLANET SHAKERS!! 2 more days to go. *Tahaning* :p

so blessed____________________ 8:14 PM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Wow` So tired now. Haha`
Zheng gang, jia rui and vince called me at 12++ telling me they had nth to do so wanted come my hse earlier, so they came and 'entertained' themselves with the comp and ps 2 while i started picking ppl up from the back gate.. started bbqing at 4+ almost 5.. then at 6 plus the boys and some other ppl went to games room to play and some of us were at bbq pit here bbqing and slacking.. haha. Suddenly a Korean Lady and a translator came sharing abit of Christ and evangulism thingy. Thank God there's a translator, ahaha. if not i will die i tell u. So nice talking to her though GOD IS THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE TIME Yey~ then meeting her tml at 2 pm downstairs my hse there cos she wanted to share a msg so that I can spread to my parents. Yea. thanks so much God for sending her to me thru u to help me to save my family..

I'm trying to save more people in this world and return them to God :)

Anyway yea had fun, then lala, zixin and joon wei arrived. They so called finished up the food and then we slacked a while and then played at games room again. Till 10++ everyone left.

Lots of fun i would sae even though im tired. I had a good laughter and rest today.. <3

so blessed____________________ 10:54 PM

Lalala` Went back sch yesterday for a math, eng and chix remedials. After that had lunch with Hua yee at amk central, followed by meeting Linda to pass her the planet shaker package at toa payoh central, at the same time bought some stuff for the bbq todae (: (:
Had tuition, quite fun (:
After tuition, went j8 for a while with Rieka and had dinner there.
Did a little bit of work too
That's my day yest.
Boring rite?

Anyway today gonna be fun after the 'sufferings' i had for this holiday.lols. 1/5 ppl coming my house and also some PSLs too :) Let's parteeeeeeee.... oh yea.. lalalallaal`

Anyway how's my new layout? haha

<3

so blessed____________________ 9:37 AM

Monday, March 14, 2005

Feeling so much better now <3 Thanks Linda for the prayer over the fone (: And daddy for encouraging me even though i got a hell last nite

Was more than half an hr late for chinese remedial just now, lucky tcher didnt ask much. haha` after tt got A math lesson then went j8 for lunch with hua yee and yin xin.one word, great :) i m happier todae :)

I will accept anything that comes my way. I trust in you Lord. I will cling to u forever and ever and will never let u Go

<3

so blessed____________________ 8:53 PM

Sunday, March 13, 2005

FINE! I take the SATURDAY for planet shaker. HAIZ` I used my own $ to pay for the confrence lor.I didnt even ask u for $$. I know what to do! I'm not a little kid anymore.I HAVE A BRAIN!! wad ever i do u not happy.. tell me wad u wan me to do? I tried study hard and got a good result for my emath test, yet u not happy. WHY must u compare me with my siblings?? I DUN HAF THE SAME BRAINS AS THEM!! really pissed off- I M OLD ENOUGH TO NOE WHAT I M DOING!!

anyway- trying to cool myself down...

I really made the effort to study yesterday, going for tuition the whole afternoon. I told u I will do my best from now on.. but cant i take a rest even during holiday? Wont u feel pain if u see me suffering from wad ever down syndrome?? u onli care abt my studies, u dun care abt my feelings!!! I've changed for the better yet u dun see it, instead u sae i'm more rebellious!! since when??? i'm just trying to stand up for myself cos i noe wad i wan... haix.. i dunno wad to do anymore..

tt's why i dun like talking to her abt anything else.. onli make things worse...

PEACE <3

so blessed____________________ 8:13 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Today..

->F&N research
->Chinese tuition homework
->F&N revision (notes)
->Social Studies revision (notes)
->Chinese tuition.

I gotta do this to myself...
I want to work towards my goal..

so blessed____________________ 9:46 AM

Friday, March 11, 2005

Teachers were struggling and busy getting the books and files properly done by us to be checked by the principal today. Wondering why the principal wants to check and is she that free to check thousands of books? Anyway, I guess Mrs Raja sort of gave up on us, cos at the end test was cancelled and brought to term 2. Sigh` And I m OUT of her remedial cos I wanted to be out and she allowed me to. I guess Mrs Chua really is encouraging and caring to sacrifice half the day of lesson yesterday to make us sit down at the hall to watch a video called "RUDY" who tried very hard to achieve his goals thru everything. Although a bit of boring, i still see the deep meaning in the story.

Today's the last day of the term and I have TOTALLY no mood to pay attention in class cos ULTIMATE DEYIAN RACE at sentosa today. hehe` I was doing at one station at artist village with ms chua. really enjoyed today seeing how they struggled at my station. (muahahhaa.. i m evil) but really very fun. then the teacher kept feeding me with food.. haha.. shall not go into details.

After the thingy, fidah,celeste and I had dinner at j8.. good day i guess..

I'm feeling much better now. Thanks so much Judy for always there for me :) I thank God for u :)

Holiday!!! yippeeeee

so blessed____________________ 11:06 PM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

I'm suppose to be asleep now. Mrs Chew told the class that a person should at least sleep 8 hours a day to recharge ourselves for next day and also to 'archive' everything happens today into our brain. Yea. I guess it will work. Shall try out. Mrs Chew is a really nice teacher. She actually told us how we should prepare ourselves for O level, and I shall follow her method.

Fidah and I are almost done with our work for Mr Wong and the event is this coming Friday. Now I know how it feels to be an In Charge of something. one word, stress. Yea`

So, I am down for 4 subjects remedial which I think I should not be in for Chinese and Geography. As for Geography, I guess Mrs Raja has made a mistake to put me in. I'm not trying to be proud or show off, yea. I just feel I should not be in.
First term of school is going to end soon. So fast and I can feel the stress level in myself is getting higher and higher when I have to do so much revision and stuff, and I need and I mean NEED to cut down on other activities and have to focus more on my work.

I'm really pissed off. Why they still can't feel my cold tone and feeling towards them? I still don understand why they are not aware of tests that are coming up and having to ask me everyday made me really irritated. Are their skins really that thick? I don't wish to loose temper and don't wish to be climbed over head by them. How I wish they will know and realise. I just don't wish to loose my temper at them, I know they are suppose to be nice friends, they are only taking advantage of me. *sigh*

Dear Father, please forgive my friends for what they had done wrong to be, Lord. Help me to forgive them with a loving heart too lord, because I should treasure them as they are gifts from you into my life. Thank You Lord. In jesus name, Amen

so blessed____________________ 10:49 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

It's really a good start of the week yesterday (: not really sure what's the reason, but i m glad I improve in my emath :) Geo test was postpone again (3 wks already) suppose to have it today after assembly, then tcher cancelled it again when my friends and I started doing it already. wah.. sadded. Councillor investiture today. was good i would sae..so proud of my mommy and ayi.. hehex. then i was suppose to replace andy to escort mdm aisha to the stage, at the end they changed plan without telling me earlier, so that i wont haf to stand there for so long. haix.then my fone got confiscated at first by mr lee jus cos i took out my fone inside hall and then he just said "girl, don mind..." ****************!!! so angry. not cos i angry he took my fone, but u noe wad he did? he browsed thru my fone!! wad type of dm is this.. haix.. still v angry with him even though i got back my fone liaox. anyway stayed back with fidah to do finish up the banner and it is completed (: so happy..

yea` guess tt's all for todae.. lots of work to do..

so blessed____________________ 5:58 PM

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Today is Sunday.

happy 19th birthday Judy!

Woke up early today cos couldn't really sleep.
So excited for today. Really excited.. wonder why.. is it cos of Judy's bdae? haha` not really. I guess it's because of the new structure of church. Also, finally i will be attending course after service! yey!!
Maybe not having cell on Saturday is a good thing too cos I realise I dont really have enough time to do my revision. And mommy wont be nagging or scolding me upside down for not studying enough. haha..well, i guess parents are like tt.
I'm actually glad that I spent most of my day on Saturday {yesterday} at home, partly slack, but the feeling is good, i guess. Yeep.. long time since I feel this way. I guess, staying more at home will help me to study more, to bond more with my family members.
Holiday's in one week's time! yey!! Got lots of events [i guess], PLANET SHAKERS CONFERENCE!! Elaine and the rest had been talking abt it last year cos they went and made me so "jealous" haha` no lar.. joking.. yea.. really looking forward to it.
Anyway have been talking rubbish, so i better end..
bb`

so blessed____________________ 7:35 AM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

I’m taking my time I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind I'm gonna be fine As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind ...
(4 march 2005)

My day today was alrite i guess. Fidott,Elaine, Rachel and I are addicted to simple plan now. haha. After sch had first chinese remedial[first time kana], thank God we onli did a compo letter writing. After that a bit slack and planned for the banner and stuff. Fidot and I went buy materials then came my house partly to slack. (: I just love the company of friends..

today got lots of stuff to do...

Knowing nothing never really matters I know you cared
Reply to the tag board:
No one,
I dunno who u r, I dun care too.Just wanna tell u that we humans r not perfect. We tend to do things that people dislike, like wad u sae talking behind ppl's back. I admit I do sometimes, this is a thing where I feel like expressing my feelings about. I know u or other people will feel hurt knowing ppl taking bad abt u behind ur back, myself feel so too. But we can't bottle up our feelings, we need to pour out what is inside us so that we will not explode somedae.

I'm not saying that I'm trying to show off or anything. I just want to let you know that this is my blog and for people to read and understand me. I know I should accept the comment u've made, but i cant cos I feel that u urself sure too will talk behind ur friends back. Please, like wad u sae.. mind ur own business. Thank you.
If u want, u're still welcome to visit my blog, if u dun wish too, u're most welcome. No one control ur 'life' online.

so blessed____________________ 8:04 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005

I’m taking my time I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind I'm gonna be fine As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind ...
My day today was alrite i guess. Fidott,Elaine, Rachel and I are addicted to simple plan now. haha. After sch had first chinese remedial[first time kana], thank God we onli did a compo letter writing. After that a bit slack and planned for the banner and stuff. Fidot and I went buy materials then came my house partly to slack. (: I just love the company of friends..
Knowing nothing never really matters I know you cared

Reply to the tag board:
No one,
I dunno who u r, I dun care too.Just wanna tell u that we humans r not perfect. We tend to do things that people dislike, like wad u sae talking behind ppl's back. I admit I do sometimes, this is a thing where I feel like expressing my feelings about. I know u or other people will feel hurt knowing ppl taking bad abt u behind ur back, myself feel so too. But we can't bottle up our feelings, we need to pour out what is inside us so that we will not explode somedae.I know we should change our bad attitude or character.

I'm not saying that I'm trying to show off or anything. I just want to let you know that this is my blog and for people to read and understand me. I know I should accept the comment u've made, but i cant cos I feel that u urself sure too will talk behind ur friends back. Please, like wad u sae.. mind ur own business. Thank you.
If u want, u're still welcome to visit my blog, if u dun wish too, u're most welcome. No one control ur 'life' online.

so blessed____________________ 10:48 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

I'm so glad that I managed to do the amath test yesterday. Mr Lee li teck [is it like tt spelt]? actually came to our cls to help miss tan watch over, then he gave us hints for every qns! Ow* haha.After test, went down for training and onli played a game. Fell asleep while studying for geo, f&n and emath cos was really tired. At the end todae no geo test and we made mrs raja angry again X(

Mr Wong asked me do some stuff for Ultimate Deyian Challenge. It's really a challenging task for me cos I m not good with ART!Haha!

Was so worried over 1/5 cos something happened. I rushed home after lunch with rachel, hua yee and yin xin to get changed cos got tuition, then i rushed back to sch and thank God everything's fine.. Now I know what kind of responsibility and stresses the tchers will haf to face in sch and cls...

I'm sorry, I still don't have the courage to talk to u.
I really wish to talk to u more and more, yet no courage.
Haix..
I really wish to sae..
I'm in love with u...
u nv realise...

so blessed____________________ 7:51 PM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Tests are piling up again. Guess I really really need to settle down to study if I want to achieve my goals. I managed to study abit last nite which i guess is a good sign :) But what I dont understand is why can someone keep asking someone, or rather me, if I haf studied or not [for like every single test that person would ask]. What time I want to study, how long and blah blah blah. Wont u find dis distracting? *sigh.. if onli that person understand.

Cooked macaroni for F&N today[which i didnt haf the chance to cos ms ng used mine to cook] Quite okae I guess. Assembly was boring..

Thinking of things lately. I shouldn't have done tt thing.
Now it's ruined.
I feel so depressed.
Feel so silly...

so blessed____________________ 5:56 PM