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Monday, February 28, 2005

Had really a bad night last nite. I guess it was a persecution of my faith for God. yes.. i believe so. I will not let Him go, nv will i leave Him.I guess I gotta learn to forgive my mom...

Today's the release of O level result. I was excited too.. dunno why. Haha` my friends did well (: So happy for them! Praise God!!

I think one thing my mom is right abt is I shouldn't look down on myself. I should try my best for O level then decide to go JC or Poly. Yea i guess so.

so blessed____________________ 6:26 PM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Happy Birthday Edwin.

Suppose to meet miss tan this morning to discuss for cell, didn't go as mom wanted me to do some stuff. After that went j8 with Rieka to shopped for some stuff, then I headed to church office. Something different todae. We gals made some things for fundraising and really proud of ourselves cos we managed to produce alot and guess wad? We sold one to our first customer! Haha` $6 earnt. :)After cell, went home to have dinner cos bro;s bdae, also nt really in the mood for anything todae.strong ambivalence..
Came home did some of my f&n research. Really sick and tired. So much things to do.. I havent even start doing my secondary 3 revision! 2 more days, o level result coming out. Why am I so worried? I dunno.. Wonder how much I would get for my o level this year. I m really scared and afraid..

God, it's really amazing to know you being there for me no matter what happen... I m grateful... I m thankful...

so blessed____________________ 10:55 PM

Friday, February 25, 2005

had nt been blogging for 3 daes. kinda tired these few days and lazy to update. hmm.. let's see...
wed was the last day of chinese new yr. had reunion dinner at home (: yesterday was the last dinner that my family had with my bro before he flew back to melbone which is todae [ he is inside the flight now] :(
nth really great happening recently. just lots of thinking in my mind.. house seemed so different with my elder bro now that he flew to melbone for another 3 mths.. will really miss him. oh abt tests.. guess will not be good grades due to stressness eventhough i did study for them. well, I still adore God cos i noe he has better plans for me (: had 2nd session of cell in sch and it was really great! Denna came too :) so glad that she wants to noe God more and more and even considering coming back to God (: I really believe that this cell will be a light to everyone out dere! Hehe` Well, finally it's Friday.Can rest more and do more revision..

One thing I cant stand[ i always stress this].. MANY ALWAYS TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME!!! i really can't stand it`
Please, I have feelings too!

-peace

so blessed____________________ 8:09 PM

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

why does she haf to be dis way?? she is my cousin u noe. i mean not really blood related cousin, STILL she is my relative! i apologised for the mini mistake i did last time, i didn't know u didn't forgive me, and the hatred in ur heart grew really deep. I care for u cousin. I dont care how much u hate me, i still love u, cos u're my cousin, my gift from God. To me, everyone that i meet in live, are gifts from god and that I gotta treasure them. I adore everyone. Really.. I just can't understand why there are so much hatred in this world. why cant we love each other like God does? I really wish one day, everyone will run to seek God. God is love and He is wad we need..

Anyway, felt a bit better after sometime today. Maybe cos I talked to God about it. yea.. spent 4 periods in comp lab during F&N, slacking when I was suppose to do research. I did a little though. After sch went to watch Hide and Seek with Li ping, Dillys, Hui Fang and Vivien. Not scary at all. hmm.. shall wait for white noise then.

Mom coming later. Hmm.. Koko leaving to Australia this Friday. I guess Gonna miss him real bad :(
Oh, Olyna put me to do projection at main service once a month! So exciting. Lols. Gonna be trained first.

This Friday, O level will be out, which made me real worried for myself too. What Kind of result will i get for my O level this year?
Thank u Samuel for always encouraging me (:

长长的路上我想我们是朋友如果有期待我想最好是不说
你总是微笑的你总是不开口世界被你掌握
月亮绕地球地球绕着太阳走我以为世界是座宁静的宇宙
今晚的天空有一颗流星划过在预言着什么
在无声之中你拉起了我的手我怎幺感觉整个黑夜在震动
耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏星星在闪烁你怎么说
你心中一定有座浓雾的湖泊任凭月光再皎洁照也照不透
你眼中闪烁湖面无边的温柔那波光在诱惑
你已经有他就不应该再有我世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑
我想我应该轻轻放开你的手我却没有力气这么做

so blessed____________________ 6:03 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

Am sad.
No one will noe how i bleed inside.
Just feel like crying anytime.
struggling with so many things in life.
I know God is with me.
I still am broken.
Can't seem to do things right.

please remind me of this!

prov 3:5-6 [[trust in the lord with all ur heart and lean not on ur own understanding; In all ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.]]

so blessed____________________ 9:43 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

it's been 3 days since i posted. really lazy 0_o
Anyway yea.. here's update... friday after sch went out to j8 with wanyi and nurul, then i accompanied nurul at amk library till 5++ cos it was raining. saturday was out the whole day. morning went amk to meet ms tan, discussed abt the next session of cell, had great time together. then i rushed to meet judy and mel, went to gym :p so excited abt this dance course [really wan to join!!]went to judy's hse after that to bathe and had lunch. rushed for cell after that, then had dinner with looyee,shangmin. then shangmin and I went to watch chingay!! yey!! my sch band rox!too tired to blog...
today woke up late cos had a nitemare.. sigh.. nvm.. rushed like mad, as usual had lift from norman.. service was great (: had lunch with the gals, plus samuel (: had sharing. real great time! then here im blogging.

I guess no fate can bring us together. so many times wanting to meet u, yet cant.. really not fate...

well, gonna go now..

so blessed____________________ 5:27 PM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Yesterday had training.very tiring even though i slacked a little. Had some fun with the sec 1s too. yea.. lots of laughter. this is wad i really need from my stressful days trying to cope in sec 4. really blessed to have them (: today's really a sleepy day for me as i slept late due to rushing for my task analysis and homework after training.kept yawning and yawning during lessons. haha. suppose to haf chinese tution, but i m too tired to go,so decided to pospone again to next week. hopefully i will go` Got about 6 tests coming up. wah.. stressful weeks coming up!! Hee` just cleaned up my book shelf. so much neater now and am proud of myself :p

tt's all folks.

an gel in di sg ui se

so blessed____________________ 3:43 PM

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

tired and sleepy day todae..
anyway had our first girl cell in sch [finally], but onli zixin and rachel turned up, including me. I guess it was not tt good, cos i m bad at leading cell grp [plus it's my first time] yea..but i really hope and pray that this cell grp will really grow bigger and more of christians will be able to sit down and share deeply so that we can help one another. connecting is really imp in order to grow spiritually (: i really m grateful and blessed for everything. I just love loving and thanking of everything tt's happening, good or bad. yea. For all i m, i will be faithful in my walk with God :)

j es us i be li e ve in y ou
j es us i be lo ng to y ou

I m is sy ou so b ad t ha t it h ur ts.
really- i miss u*

so blessed____________________ 9:39 PM

Monday, February 14, 2005

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAE!!

i m a good gal[ u shd noe wad i mean]jk. sch was alrite. flunked lots of things. gonna buck up..

tt's all i guess. enjoy ur valentine's dae (:

so blessed____________________ 5:03 PM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Hee`had been very slacky these days cos of cny!oh did i tell u abt friday? nvm. yea` onli half the cls went to sch on friday and it was super slacky. got back pprs and i felt nth cos i was very slack! lols.-_-"
yepp, yest did some homework at home [felt so great cos i was tempted to go out and i overcome it!]. went for cell and onli a few ppl were at agnes' hse. had some fun too. after cell, had dinner with the guys. onli shangmin and i are gals :x then shangmin and i went home. see i so goog gal.lols.jk. :p

so blessed____________________ 7:52 AM

Friday, February 11, 2005

a better view of the lame family :p. cute eh?

so blessed____________________ 11:45 PM

yest went to visit second aunt and second uncle [mom's side] alrite lar. quite slack but alot of ang baos :p
Today went sch, onli half the cls came, quite slack too. After sch rushed home got change then rush to ps meet anita. watched constantine again :p alot of time slot were full hse man. haha. yea anita thinks that the show sux cos they were mocking at God. To think of it, maybe.. i didnt think abt it cos i just treat every show as a show and of cos i love GOD and nv will mock at him. He is the creator!! Yea, took photos with anita too (: shopped around and blah blah.. she left to meet her friends while i left to orchard for a while to get things. Oh ya! Went to mrs ong's shop! it's so beautiful. she was there too!! i love her shop and of cos her!! hey guys next time got any art things must go her shop kae? lols. it rawkz ya noe!!
yea tml got cell (: so happy and looking forward to it.

so blessed____________________ 7:52 PM

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

went to visit my 6th and 7th aunts' hse. Collected lots of ang baos. had fun too. going to watch constitine with my cousins later (: i m happier today too (: I just HATE the feeling of depression and everything that will hurt my feeling. i wont wan to care anymore abt these type of feelings. i wan to be a happy gal (:

so blessed____________________ 7:00 PM

my family photo. not nice d :p

so blessed____________________ 8:46 AM

mama giving me ang bao on cny eve :p

so blessed____________________ 8:40 AM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Had mini chinese new yr celebration in sch today. Alright bah` Gave 2 tchers oranges (: After sch went to ps with ping they all to haf breakfast then i rushed to meet my friends to go back mcs. my ex cls mates really change alot. in a better ways of coz. lol. oh yea.. slacked with chu and anita at mac after lunch. really nice to be together again cos we were very good friends in primary sch (: then i rushed home to prepare go for reunion dinner with family at thai village. took alot of photos too (: then my 2 bros, my dad and i went to singapore ang bao river to walk around for a while. the china ppl are real good with art work!!!! shall not go into details. photos will be up soon. ko editing the photos we took just now.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADNVANCE (: (:

so blessed____________________ 10:48 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

Had fun yest in church (= esp with the lame king's clan :p bleah* talking rubbish. Studied a while with shangmin after lunch then I had to come back home as parents already arrived in sg. slacked real lots.
Just felt real unfair at times. Depression. Sadness. Wadeva. just hate the feeling. Why is it this way?
Had fun in sch today with my sec 1s. As usual went to visit them in the morning then had some jokes around.. finally 2 tests of the week's finally over Oh got back amath ppr, though fail,i still can take cos I didnt fail badly according to them. Kinda happy cos can continue taking yet dissapointed with myself. Wadeva* I m just a failure. [mind me of being negative at times] Anyway went j8 with nurul for a while to take neo neo, then rushed back to sch again cos she got choir. then i slaked around in sch again and went home with my sec 1 kids. Really enjoy myself with them though i may feel like i m sec 1 again . Again depression, unfair treatment and blah blah blah. Oh tml celebration in sch and going back to primary sch with anita and siu chu! miss them lots. Been so long since we last see each other. Yea!! Chinese new year reunion dinner tml too :p kk- i shdn't be negative anymore. haix`

so blessed____________________ 8:45 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

I'm really tired now. Went to Sp open house with fidah and her friends, met Ian there. Then looked around, saw a lot of Ex deyians and deyians there. Not long later, met up with Shang Min and her friends then we had lunch and went to cause way pt. Had lots of fun with the two grps today (: Bought a hand bag at a cheap price yet nice (:
I really NEED to settle down and study! Yet I just dun have the mood to do so. Got so much work piling up and tests even 2 days before chinese new yr! Wonder why sec 4 life is so sucky. Haiz`
Abt my future, I really unclear of it. My family jus dun approve me going to poly. But i dont think i can cope in jc! And jc is those type of study and study and study! Why can't i choose my own path in life? I know they wan the best of me, but i really dun wan to study the whole time, i just dun like studying. I wan to be more hands on type like wad they do in poly! When u go out to work, I m sure lots of hands on is needed right? Haiz` Dunno lah..
Lost and confused

so blessed____________________ 8:53 PM

Friday, February 04, 2005

Finally it's friday! Can rest more. Luckily yesterday night didnt study for ss, cos it's source based question. Hee` Mrs Chew didnt tell us if its source base or structured. I had no mood to study, so didnt study. Anyway I shall have a good weekend :p Ms Tan hasn't finish marking the a math qualifying test. Heard from other class, not well done at all. Most people fail than pass the test. Stayed back for the last time today to finish up the decoration and I guess It shd be presentable :p Slacked around with the sec 1s after that. Had fun too (: Reached home abt 7++ Changed my blog layout and taggy. Comment please (:
Oh ya."ang baos" from tchers for cny are homework!!! Can u believe tt? Alot to do, really. Haha`

tt's all i guess. bb

so blessed____________________ 9:51 PM

Thursday, February 03, 2005

There'r so many things happening recently.I've sort of drifted away from the person.Dunno what to talk about like we used to talk on msn.
I wonder if it's good or bad.
Anyway, tml will be the dead line for class decoration. Phew` Finally gonna be over with these stuff.
Had not been doing well for maths and chem. Kinda worried.. i guess I havent really settle down to study..
There will be two tests tml, yet havent start studying. I dunno what is happening to me!
Hey hey` next week chinese new year! Kinda excited, yet homeworks' piling up each day. Wonder what type of chinese new year is this.
Bleah*
I really HATE it when ppl take advantage of me! Why? i thought history will not repeat itself, yet it is now. I dunno what to do. Agnes said not to mix with this type of ppl, but I thought we should forgive and forget? I really dunno.
Oh one imp thing. I may get back my a math qualifying test result tml!! Pray that i will still can take a math yea? Thanks guys :p

To loo yee and Judy: really love u guys for ur helping hands :) Really love u guys to bits for being there for me (:
To Ian, Joshua, Adrian, Chong Ming, Nick Tang,Titus: Just realised that u guys are really a bunch of nice ppl. Thanks for the encouraging messages u wrote to me last saturday yea :p
To Linda: for trusting me with ur probs. Remember I will always be there for u and u will be there for me (:
To Shangming: hey u! Always so happy go lucky one. hehe.. remain that way yea :p
To So many others: I really love everyone in my life (:

forever, u will remain in my heart- <3

so blessed____________________ 7:26 PM

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Hehe`That's Sheila On 7, Indonesia band. I really like them lots. Had been listening to their songs lately and it's real nice (:

Anyway today life goes on per normal. Thank God havent got back the a-math paper yet. Almost got heart attack :p
Got the o level qn for F&N coursework already. Rather tricky. Unsure which one to choose. Gotta tell ms Ng this Thursday already. Assembly was the talk abt how the reporters/journalist work. Really can die i tell u. But was rather intresting. Kept Atiqah accompany at lib, she had to do her research for D&T. Tml got Emath test. Then my chinese tcher suddenly added a revision test for sec 2 this friday! and I got a ss test too this friday! Help!!

so blessed____________________ 5:30 PM