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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Haiz~ Thought i will feel betta after yesterday's crying and all. I still feel sooo frustrated and irritated. Sometimes I just feel that some people take me for granted, but I cant do anything, cos God gave them to me to let me experience with things and try to cope with them. Sorry guys if i have offended any of u here. But it's just that my heart ache alot now, not cos of relationship thingy but friendships, I just dunno how to pen down this type of feelings. I dont care if any of u here complain to another person that i m complaining abt, cos this is my blog where i pen down all my feelings no matter how other people think. If I were u, i will just ignore this or rather learn from what people think abt u if u think that they are rite. I dunno- sometimes i just feel that God is not with me when i need him the most. Why things turn out like this? History is repeating itself!

[[sorry if u dun understand wad i m writing abt. I just need someone who is willing to listen to my problems and help me in anyway he/she can]]

Preview today, quite excited and at the same time nervous. Tml have to chiong with my studying of tests for next wk liao. Damn stress up these days.

so blessed____________________ 7:42 AM

Friday, July 30, 2004

Arggggh! Damn frustrated now, really dunno why. Trying to control my temper over things these days, so ppl ,pls dun make me angry or anything. :(
So today ndp practice was quite alrite~ tml preview le, my sis and fren watching there cos i gave her the tix. Actually wanted to go study with huifang and the rest, that was wad we planned the day before, at the end we ended up watching movie cos mellya asked to watch, kinda not happy with tt.. haiz.. watched the home of flying daggers.. thanks to some smses that actually cheered me up a lil. Hey anita, sorrie tt i kind of neglected u these days cos really damn stressful and lots of things happening to me. I will try to make it up for u some day okae? I will still read ur blog to get updated =)
Gonna get my hp in 5 days time! lalaal`

so blessed____________________ 9:38 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Today had been more to the bad side. Everything was alrite till recess time when i went to look for Denna and she told me tt 148, a no in ndp kp abt me lorx.. i did knocked onto her, but not delibretly! i even said sorry and asked if she was okae alot of times u noe? She nv respond only, so i tot ok already, who noes she made such a big fuss abt it today! Thank God her 2 friends still have the heart and mind to actually side me. I guess they heard i apologised to her and maybe they realised that she was at the wrong this time. I was still very fed up abt this thing and had to attend Mrs raja cls where we had to take out a worksheet, then this another she again made me fed up lor~ haiz~ i could burst out any time lor.. alot of ppl really taking me for granted abt things.. i hate it this way, but dunno lar.

After sch, Denna and i went to toa payoh central to have our lunch and shopped a while, paid fone bills, that was the funny part :p Then she came over to my hse.. she became a 'spy' taking pics of my whole hse.. haha.. then i guess she was bored to death that she played online games cos i was doing my homework [ rush first cos weekend study for tests]. Tml NDP practice in the morning =) so happy! then maybe noon going out with frens to study in grp =)

Now chatting with my bro, so happy! wohoooooo!

so blessed____________________ 8:02 PM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Let's see. Yest lessons till 11.55 then came home, slp and rot :p NDP practice was alrite, we changed lots of things like the way we hold our drum, the directions we were suppose to face and ect. Quite alrite overall.

Oh ya~ forgot something. I m friend with someone already aft one yr of ahem. Well, at least that person treats me better now. Hopefully we will help each other.

so blessed____________________ 7:02 AM

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Hmm~ I just woke up from my nap =) So, yest combine rehearsal was great, i mean our performance but one thing is my drum the switch is spoilt! All thanks to shun qiang! haha.. but it's okae, still lights come out from my drum. Thank God man!

This morning went for service [ HAPPY ONE MONTH THERE, VINA] Before that had discipleship cls with agnes alone before shangmin came and u noe, i felt so nervous! haha~ but i learnt lots of things. Oh yea, before the lesson start, agnes asked me to go out and tell narvin to ask shangmin go to the room when she comes, wah~ i was so nervous i tell u, then narvin said 'u'r vina rite?' i was so shocked! how did narvin noe my name? so i went back to the room and asked agnes, so she told me~ the great thing is that i got the chance to teach shangmin a bit!so glad that i could have the chance~ i wan to be more bold in this type of things, spread God's words to everyone, just like how narvin do every week. Anyway, today's service was real cool and saddening. It was about how to handle a crisis.
Three things to note: 1) Admit that u're weak to god, be honest.2) Spend time with God by going to somewhere peaceful and read his words and pray.3) Give credit to God cos he help us thru the crisis.
I felt so welcomed today and felt so loved =) After the sermon, narvin asked those who is facing crisis to step out and stand at the front and of cos all did, and i can really see how every1 at chruch love each other. We wept, prayed and consoled each other. I was really touched. This is my first time at church where all of them care for me. I wan to thank God for all that he had given me =)

This wk is really a blessing wk for me =)

My dearest mama birthday today! H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y~

so blessed____________________ 5:13 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Yest's practice sux! Was so frustrated with the instructor and teachers. Dun they noe tt we were very tired? If they noe, they wun push us so hard rite? Even if we didnt perform well yest, tt was cos we were tired and not lazy and nv put in effort!! Grrr~ But break time, thanks to mellya who entertained us with her 'drama'. lolx

Went home and mum back from australia, kor sent us a cd containing his pics over there. All of us gathered near the comp and see. I MISS HIM SO MUCH!! Anyway, most prob i can get hp liao~ lalala~ soo happy =)

Going for combine rehersal today. bb`

vina*memoriez

so blessed____________________ 10:07 AM

Friday, July 23, 2004

Wow` today sch started at 9.10 due to yest NDP practice till 9++. F&N students to go cooking room, thank god we went cos Mrs Chua actually went to our own cls to observe the cls, so is like the D&T students had to behave themselves. So we made Plain Apom and Cookies~ the lesson was so damn fun even though we almost missed our recess, it's alrite, we still got food to spare. Anyway, today's lessons were quite relaxing though Mrs Raja was here, she didnt do much talking, except tt we had to copy correction for test.

After sch actually wanted to go home to rest, but who noes mellya and andy asked me watch i robot with them [my 2nd time watching], so decided to go lorx.. at least i understand the show better cos yest didnt really pay much attention to the movie. And now i m here stuck with the comp.. haha.. later i still have to go back to sch for NDP practice!!! I NEED A REST!!

so blessed____________________ 4:32 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Hey! I m back! Today's filled with happiness, sorrow, sadness, touched and other feelings. Passed my A maths and did badly for my E maths which i was really shocked! Mr Hiew actually came to me and said some encouraging words to me which made me felt so worthy, made me felt so guilty and all. He actually had pinned so high hope in me! I did study hard for all tests dis term =) I m really grateful to those who care for me.

After sch went to watch i-robot with monica. Was great!! Must watch okae?? After that headed back to sch and interesting stuff happen which i wun mention here :p Practice was great too! It was so beautiful!! I mean we learnt the lights for formation 5 to 6 =) But then wad made me sick and angry was that there are a grp of NA gals who actually scolded bad words anytime they wan lorx.. they thought they are so perfect, so good and blah blah blah, but i tell u, if they are still like this in future, no one will look up on them lorx.

weeeee!! tml report to sch later~ can slp longer =)

Pics for racial harmony day is ready to be viewed at my bro's msn grp. Look for the link near my profile on blog =)

so blessed____________________ 11:00 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Hey yoo! Happy Racial Harmony Day! Those wore costume looked so gorgeous! Photos will be up soon yea? Haha` Then Really got a suprise from Hiew! But could not really get a clear shot when he on stage. Grrr~ Other participents also~ saded that i sat so far back in the hall. But hey! i managed to get Eileen, Hao wen, rashem and yanyi! The parade i think is really unfair lor! Why sutana won when others wore even nicer ones from her!!! Grrrr~ But hey, nvm, at least we enjoyed rite? Ehehee..

After sch had lunch in sch then headed to j8 with katrina and christine to meet monica and melissa, but who noes went there already, monica, mellisa were with mellya and sherly, then i pangse katrina and christine[sorrie galz] and cont eating at shakei sushi there then went to take pics which will be up soon too and today mellya's mind is really yellow man! lolx!! X)

Not in really good mood now cos of probs with my lil bro.. haiz..

so blessed____________________ 6:08 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

My cough is getting from bad to worse! It's really hard to breath and all, guess i got asthma too :( Anyway today was alright. EXCEPT for a maths test which i m sure i m dead~ it's really hard i tell u~ even Anton, our cls genius for maths could not solve the qn. Oh yea~ before A maths period, we had E maths and Mr Hiew was revising with us for tml's test and he actually asked how was my revision for a maths test, cos i asked him abt similar triangle the previous evening. Was so glad that this teacher actually cares so much for his student =)

Sooo excited abt tml's Racial Harmony Day! All indonesian in Deyi going to wear costumes and we are going to come together and take pics =) I N D O N E S I A N ROCKX DEYI~

After sch went to J8 with Denna and Mellya to have our lunch, then Mellya left first and I was left with Denna. Saw STEFFI GOH and she was like staring at me?! was so shocked do u noe tt? OKae, I still have 2 tests tml which are emaths and ss. Gotta ciao now.. bb

so blessed____________________ 4:21 PM

Monday, July 19, 2004

Today dismissed from sch early~ wee u weet~ so damn happy man! Lessons today as usual BORING maybe cos i m too tired cos was rushing to do finish the chinese project and all. Thank Goodness Mrs Raja is not in sch, so tt we will not suffer at least for a day =) Oh yea, had a chat with one of them online last nite and problems solved from last time =) Thanks guys and of cos God! Who had helped me to believe in myself and answered my prayer to tahan that things will turn out well =) And one more good thing is that I finish my chinese project and had handed in to tcher~!! ehehee.. Going to take a nap now and then later study for my amaths test tml.

so blessed____________________ 2:04 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Wow` Finally done my part for chinese project which to be handed in tml. Damn tired now. So today's sermon was on Availability. Pastor Narvin is sick, so he was unable to come and preach, so Adrian preached. Was so touching when he shared abt a friend of his Was a drug addict for 5 yrs and no matter how hard he tried to get rid of the bad habbit, he could not, till Adrian intro him to Jesus, he started coming to church to serve him and learn things. Now he is recovering. Thank God for him that he had come to noe Him =) Oh ya, the funny part the bibble study we had today was tt it was on "dating" as in the dating of bgr type? wahhaa.. was so funny~ the kids were so interested O_o. Then the most suprising one is tt Agnes brought her labtop, showed us the pics that were taken at her hse[ the kids had some kind of party before i actually join them] so adorable! Plus there are so lovely pics[ Narvin and Agnes] owww.. lolx..

Anyway, yea.. after service went home then started on my chinese project, then went to meet hua yee and then rachel for theirs so that i can decorate them, but they turnt out to be soooooo ugly! O_0

so blessed____________________ 8:31 PM

Reached home 2 am in the morning just now! But hey~ im feeling fresh and not sleepy! But guess wad? God had helped me~ cos he noes tt i m going to worship him and learn his words today, so he gave me the strength~ =)

So yesterday's NE show, we rox the whole stadium yea? U can really feel the 'famousness' of us when we performed. At first i was really nervous, but from formation to formation, i felt better. Thank God i didnt really make mistake if not i shall die. The fire works were beautiful! ow.. didnt bring my camera to tape them.Oh before the peformance, we had to style our hair and put make up and i had turned out into an ugly duckling O_o. At 5++ had our dinner and i was with Mellya, Sherly, Mon and Fidah. Had great time with them =) Then fidah very excited and happy cos of ahem ahem :p Then there is this point of time when simone helped to restyle my hair, this outside photographer kept staying there and took pics of us! Felt so malU! At first simone didnt want her to take pics, but too bad, the photographer didnt want to go away, so she had to force herself to continue restyle my hair.. lolx... We returned to the indoor stadium after the 'party' and had to wait till 1++ then we were able to leave the indoor stadium. Thank god Denna's parents sent me home, if not if take taxi at such a late hr.. so scary~!

I have lots of things to do later:

1) Discipleship cls
2) Bibble study cls
3) Service
4) Chinese project
5) Revision- ss and chinese.

Oh yea.. Happy Birthday Miss Joanna Tan EE Na!!!

so blessed____________________ 8:16 AM

Friday, July 16, 2004

Just reach home not long ago. Today was great! My maths test [not counted in ca] got A1! I didnt have any confidence after doing the test though, but hey~ God had helped me in this! ^^After sch was with Denna most of the time. I was suppose to give Mr Hiew the test paper corrections from the whole cls at the stuff room, but we waited for him for sooo long! Finally he appeared! Then dunno wad Denna told him, he offered us a packet of biscuits and 'chased' us away :p Then went back to 307 where the boys were playing soccer. I was with Denna sitting down chit chatting and a ball suddenly hit my face and guess who's the culprit? RICKY!Grrr~ So painful do u noe tt? Anyway, then miss tan looked for me asking me be one of the model to pretend doing the maths activity that we had last week but cos the pics dissapeared, she had to take in order to hand in to MRs Chua. So i offered the help with Fidah and Arifin. NDP practice was slacking inside the hall. So, tml NE show, we are not using the lights of the drums. GReat! After practice, chiong to Orchard to meet Anita and friends then went to Plaza singapura, intended to watch movie, but the queue was long and the show we wanted to watch was full hse.. so decided not to watch and had our dinner instead at the ground floor. Then we walked all the way to HMV and looked around, after that Anita left and me, Kriss and Steven headed to our bus stops. At the traffic lights, their bus drove past and they ran with all their mite there and i too ran all the way to my bus stop cos my bus also drove past! Was panting like mad man.. wahaha.. anyway today was great! And guess wad? My dear kor finally has a blog! oh yea~ can update me with all his life there :)
And he is going to noe abt mine too.. shall be open with him since he is my own brother and no more here to take care of me. I have to learn to be independent and grow up ^^

so blessed____________________ 10:10 PM

Shall update one entry before I go and prepare going to school. So, God had help me thru the maths webpage and I had done it!!! Oh yea~ i m no more gonna suffer from stressness and headacheness of tt. So, after leaving the comp lab, went to take bus to Toa Payoh Popular to buy printing paper, foolscap and an Ss guide book and after tt went home and rested for a while. At 5++ went to meet fidah. When it was time to go down, i wanted to collect drum, so fidah accompanied me to the store room, but couldnt find mine, went for the second time or third time, then Mr Hiew was there bouncing a ball and threw the ball to me and i managed to catch it, but he couldnt! and yet he said i lousy! Hmmmpp... jkjk.. We are good friends, wad to do.. lolx.. Anyway, practice was alright,. block A got our drums for ndp already and it's quite heavy! we practiced down at the field with the drums and all of us messed up the lighting part! we didnt know what colour is wad formation and all those.. bleah. Anyway, over all practice was alright. Today after sch, we still haf one final one before the NE show which is tml O_o and rieka is going to watch!! oh my god!

I m soooo happy~ after ndp practice today, gonna go out with anita and him! oh yea

so blessed____________________ 6:21 AM

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Yooz~ lalala~ now i m in sch comp lab, just finish doing the cls webpage [finally!!].. hmm.. this morning had been a stressful yet fun for me =) Morning instead of taking story book down for reading, i brought a dictionary down! See how blur am i? Didnt realise it till i went down for flag raising. Lessons were alright, chinse lesson spent most of the time doing the chinese project. Tcher i love u! Dead line extended to next monday. But then next wk will be a very busy wk occupied by tests. Today we were dismissed early cos later at 5.45 we will be having NDP practice for the first time so late cos we are learning to control the lights. Lucky comp lab is being occupied with the 2/9 ppl tt i noe if not i will be bored to death..

so blessed____________________ 2:06 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Today good and bad things happened to me. Let me talk abt the good thing first.. lessons were alright, slightly better than yest, amaths test posptpone to next tues. Went for training, was quite serious during training.. the sec 1s had to carry medicine ball which weigh 3 kg each o_0. Happened to meet Mr Hiew when i wanted to hail taxi to go home, then happened that 2 taxis came at the same time, so we could wave at each other from the window =P. Bad things! I skrewed up the maths webpage again! I m dead meat! Now it's already 11 and yet i cant finish and i m soooo tired! Dunno why tcher care so much when other classes dun bother to hand in. Haiz~. Today is really a tiring day for me lorx. Haiz~ I really dunno wad to do now... Better off to do the webpage..

so blessed____________________ 10:56 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Lessons were still boring, esp physics lessons!! Double period somemore~ kept asking ppl to entertain me, at the end, i entertained myself.. hiak* After sch had a short lesson with ms tan cos elaine requested it. Miracle worx! lolx.. elaine who used to not bother abt everything and slp in cls has really changed alot! She really made the effort not to slp in cls and tried to pay attention. Congrats elaine!! Then my emaths tcher kept forgetting to gif homework or collecting homework~ wahaha.. he really arx.. so forgetful..ckckck. Hmm~ Guess wad??? This friday after ndp will be going out with him and anita.. wahaha~ wanna see how slow he walks[oppss..]sooo damn happy!!! it's been 1 mth and 11 days since i last see him ;p

so blessed____________________ 4:55 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

Lessons were boring today. Kept yawning non-stop and had no mood for everything. Still thinking of Kor~ haiz` After sch, ran under the rain with liwei,elaine,huayee,rachel to go bus stop to toa payoh here. Bought stuff at popular, went had lunch at kfc and headed to my hse to do my chinese project. They spent most of the time admiring my hse.. hiakz* at the end onli managed to do a little of stuff. But nvm, at least we had done stuff. Haiz`i really dunno how to handle my lil bro! He doesnt listen to me at all!! How am i going to cope for the rest of this 2 wks? Someone help me!

so blessed____________________ 7:19 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Service was great today! Had lots of fun serving God =) After service went upstairs look for kor and then had lunch together and it was his treat =) Well, that was the last meal we had before he left. Went to airport as one family and his friends there too to send him off. Haiz` when it was time for him to leave, my parents and others actually cried, i didnt cos i dun wish to let him worry abt me anymore, but once he and mum were further away, i started to cry silently without anyone noticing.. all memories spent with kor appeared.. i miss his face, his voice, his advice, his scolding and his everything! Kor!!! I will wait for ur return from australia!!

so blessed____________________ 7:56 PM

Yesterday was great =) Had been crying the whole morning cos just feeling there is unfairness in the family, eye real swollen. Went to meet Fidah, denna and zan at amk mrt station and headed for sch. Handed the letter of excuse to ms tan then hang around.. Went for tution after tt.. so little ppl and so quiet! Really not used to it. At nite, had dinner at crystal Jade in toa payoh center, it had been so long since my family really have reunion dinner. I lorve my kor a lot! Thank u for all ur advice and teaching me how to be a good christian, a good gal and all.. cos after he leaves, i will be the one taking care of the family.I m really holding a great responsibility. And my little bro, i really dunno how to teach him cos at his age, it's real easy to go the wrong way, yea?Haiz~ i m really afraid that i cant make it. But hey, with God i can do it, yea? Haha.. hey anita, thanks so much for always reminding me tt God is always with me anytime, anywhere, wadeva i m feeling, God is always with me, yea?

Later will be going to center of new life. Zi xin, thanks for the support u gave me =) There are so many words that i wan to tell u, but it's just too malu to tell u face to face.. whenever i tok to u, i just dunno wad to sae.. sorrie yea? i will built up the courage :p In the evening gonna send my bro and mum off at the airport.. there are still aloooot of ppl sending him too. Kor! I miss u lots!

so blessed____________________ 8:19 AM

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Didn't manage to blog yest cos after NDP and reached home, went out with my dad who had arrived earlier yest afternoon and lil bro. Yesterday wasnt a good day for me again cos firstly, Class was unusually quiet, not used to it, but it's a better environment, maybe i shd take time to be used to it. Went for dentist and I am gonna be called again next week which make me so scared. NDP was feeling kinda down, didnt feel like talking and was quiet most of the time which ppl found it weird. Jus didnt have the mood to tok and all. I m still looking for the reason why i m sad and all. Weird.

Later not going for the combined rehersal. Will be having family dinner later as a farewell dinner for my elder brother who will be leaving tml. Well, gonna send him to airport tml of cos.I still have tons of work to do!!Ppl pls help me!!!

So little time, so much work to do

so blessed____________________ 7:54 AM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Had been down lately without knowing the reasons, the feeling of sadness just appear of no where. Haiz~ It's like the feeling of crying will appear every night. Can someone tell me what had actually happened to me? So i had to redo the maths webpage! wad is this? Why are they killing me with so much work? I dun wan to do the maths webpage anymore!! Chinese project is due next wk and there are tests coming up too! Today the maths teacher shouted at our cls for the first time and i was really shocked and sad. haiz~

Regarding the changing of church, i really hope u guys will support me cos i m re-newing my christianity life and hope to be showered with God's words and love thru there since i could not really find it in hope of god and also my relationship with my sisters in christ there are weak. It's partially my fault of not attending cg or services regulary due to some stuff that actually did not permit me to do so. But I think sunday will be the best day to attend service as that is the only free day i have for the week and i can actually spend more time for service and gatherings. One thing i wan to let my hope of god church ppl noe tt i haf feelings for the church and u guys, but dun worri, i will still attend services there if i haf the time and gatherings with u guys, yea?

Hey Anita, thanks for being so understanding! All the best for ur oral tml!!! And to him thanks for taking out ur time to actually msg me and ask how i m doing though u are dead busy with stuff..

so blessed____________________ 9:18 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Not in very good mood today.
Netball training was okae but felt there are really some unfairness.
Brother wants me to change church to center of new life. Gonna miss my y-hope ppl alot.

so blessed____________________ 7:54 PM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Great~! My hardwork had gone! The maths webpage html was deleted by my lil bro! I cant be bothered to do it anymore and the date due is this coming Friday! Today, we were given another project to do! Why are there so many things piling for me to do when we are sooo busy with NDP practice? Do u think we haf the time to do? Haiz~ but i guess this is wad we called learning journey where we haf to do so many things and also we are onli in secondary sch, if in jc and university, guess we will die!

My friendship with her is improving =) so happy for tt and she today super good mood which made me so natural and all when talking. Hopefully we will be able to be like last time =) this time project also doing with her and fidah =) And as for my friend and her friend, they are okae already.. hopefully the gal will really 'wake up' one day and not till every1 leave her and she regret and all, yea?

Lessons before recess were alrite, but after recess, i almost fell aslp! Couldnt concentrate at all, kept yawning and all~ once the last period bell rang, i quickly walked out of sch to meet my friend, jennifer who had come from indonesia jus to look for me :p Shopped around heeren and took some pics. Wanted to send her home to Simei,at the end i ended up alighting at Lavendar and took bus home as i was really tired.

Mother jus arrived not long ago to send my bro off to australia in 5 days's time. Sobx*

so blessed____________________ 7:37 PM

Monday, July 05, 2004

So, went to shop at Toa Payoh Central with rieka as i had not been there to shop since NDP started. Was so fun walking around and look around, went library which i had not entered for months. Tonight my cousin, Shintia and a friend might be staying over ^__^.

so blessed____________________ 5:46 PM

So, i went for the youth service instead of my bro's one. Thank god there is this gal, elaine who happened to be Norman's niece to take care of me if not i would be feeling so left out ^^ Well, i felt so old cos most of them are abt 12~ i mean as in the group that the gal is in and she herself is 12~ I was introduced to a few ppl who are around my age and there is this guy who looks like Gao Xin in MVP valentine u noe!! err.. nvm i m a bit siao here. After a lil chat with the older ppl, i went to join the kids whose so called teacher is also inside the room teaching them abt FAITH~ i felt so welcomed and blessed by them =) Not long later we joined in the service where filled with joy and the guys standing infront were too excited and all to kick and hop around like mad~ i was so scared cos they almost bump into me! The service wasnt as great as Y hope, but i shall not sae its bad cos it's still god's kingdom where we worship him and all =) So the sermon was on "Daring act of Love" The pastor told us abt Mother theresa, it was really a touching one and really daring act of love and also a story from bible, 2king chapter 5. Take a look at the story. The pastor made the story become so funny and all. Haha~ Then after service went up with elaine to look for my bro who brought me to the youth group, but he had left with his friend, then Norman offered to send me home, but i told him gotta go sch then i left. The youth group actually having this sonicfestival on 31st july~ every1 kept asking me if i can go.. sad lor.. still have ndp practice...

Went to meet Fidah at Amk, while waiting wanted to take $ from atm machine, then the card was stuck and being retained!! i was so scared and norvous.. unsure wad to do, decided to take mrt to toa payoh the bank, thank god i met fidah when boarding the mrt! She went with me, but then the bank was closed!! Then we rushed back to amk for our ndp practice. Hmm~

Today's combine rehersal was alright. Our holding area was at the indoor stadium where we can 'enjoy' ourselves.lolx. and again they over fed us!! was with denna and fidah all the while and had fun till after the rehersal when walking back to our stadium, a fren and a fren had a quarerll [shall not mention their names]. I cant sae anything cos I dun really noe wad really happened but i noe i must pray to god that hopefully they will noe their mistakes and all and since they had been friends since sec 1, i really think they shd be back together and forgive each other.

On the way back to sch~ my bus was super duper the noisy! I wanted to take a nap, but couldnt! cos they were really noisy!!! Err.. nvm.. denna's parents sent me home again cos it was really late, thanks denna =)

Reached home my maid and lil bro kept telling me there were calls from guys, and one of them was HIM! so happy~ after taking shower, called him without noeing wad time it was~ Luckily he wasnt asleep yet and we had a small chat, he kept telling me he is alright but walk like an old grandma :p haha.. then i kept laughing and laughing and he tot i was mad.. well.. suddenly jus talk to him so naturaly, unlike last time where i dun noe wad to tok abt and so scared to tok to him and there is always anita for me to help me :p Haha! Thank God that he is alright and going sch tml! :)

Anyway, wanna wish everyone out there HAPPY YOUTH DAY!

so blessed____________________ 8:20 AM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

Yawnz~ I'm still soooo tired! But yea, still haf to go sch for NDP practice, before that i m going to my bro's church again! Oh yea~ Wondering if he has arrived in sg~ hmmmpp.. nv cor me to report when i asked him to for so many times...

Yesterday on the way back to sch on the bus was actually talking to michelle. I realised that i really open up, i shared my troubles and problems in cls or for friendship, felt so much better after sharing. Thanks michelle for being there =)Hey! Did u watch news yesterday nite? We were on tv! Haha~ i was so excited.. kk.. better stop here.. gotta take shower and go for my bro's service.. can see him on stage again :p

so blessed____________________ 8:55 AM

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Yeekz~ i m so smelly! Dun dare take shower cos no one is at home now and i m alone! Hmm` SYF was great~ Our sch band rox!Even though they didnt win, i still think they rox! even steven loves it alot^^ at least Ngai Yi Qian won the best drum major of the year[deyi]. Tanjong Katong had been winning for the past 4 yrs lorx. Hmm~ Okok, let tok abt us. We had to put make up, but me and a grp of gals 'escaped' to the toilet and put make up. Fahana helped me and she also helped alot of~ wah she very professional sia~ if teacher put, sure 'eee', no offence :p Jus not used to put make up lar.. i onli wear on special occasions. So i was really nervous when we were performing, but luckily i didnt skrew up things yea? haha~

Anyway, just wan to sae something: We rox the SYF` haha.. Our Deyi band rox!!! Tml still have to go for NDP practice, lucky dun need bring costume.. yeeek. so smelly.. haha.. Once again, it's so scary to be home alone!!!!

so blessed____________________ 9:33 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

My beloved cousin is here~ She arrived to sg long time ago from Jkt but finally visit us today =) Anyway, today's lessons were alright. After sch had NDP practice, quite a relaxing ones. Today i m really crazy being with Denna and all. Haha~ Actually quite okae today, can feel that i m feeling better towards them, still trying to learn to accept them. Tml SYF~ very nervous and scared worx! Some more wad we have to put make up! omg~ cant imagine how the guys will look like with the make up :p Stoopid rashem! everytime see me sure will mention someone's name! How can he do that to me? *sObz* erm.. nvm.. met Shalini[ my pri sch fren] on the way back home with frenz, but she seemed to be quite arrogant those type. Haiz` nvm.. since she get into a better sch than me, i shall not blame her for tt.

crazine swenz

so blessed____________________ 9:40 PM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Sch started at 7.50 today. Was called to go down to put my drum back into the PE room, not only me, there were still other ppl. Thank God didnt get any punishment. PE lesson was great~ at least they welcomed me to play =) Hopefully we can be friends again like last time. Ms Tan allowed us to sit with the people we want but if we do not improve as time goes by, she will still made us sit back where we were supposed to sit. After sch went to have lunch with a tcher, celeste, hua yee and rachel. I noe who is our f&n tcher already~ haha. Great! and the tcher tht we went to eat with actually forgot to set homework for us! Wahaha~ After eating, celeste and I went j8 to buy our stuff then i headed for home. Tml gonna have NDP again~ sianz*

tml.will.be.a.brighter.day =)

so blessed____________________ 6:03 PM

Shall update before i head for sch since it's early now. Yesterday's lessons in sch were okae and Mr Hiew started teaching us already but he was teaching like a shooting gun! Talked so fast and i had to read on my own to understand, but nvm. Released from cls at 11.10 which means we had longer recess than the ppl from first recess. Great =) someone told me something which made me feel very uncomfortable and unsure to be sad or happy for that someone. Well, nvm. Headed for stadium, then we had to wait till 5++ before we can perform! Weather so hot and everything.I love our finale part cos releasing of the ballons was so nice and beautiful! After performance, we all stinked~ haha~ Hmm~ got our syf tickets[finally] inside the bus but we had to play a 'game' so that we can get another one from the new tcher. Reached sch, anyhow throw the drums on the floor then yea.. headed home by taxi then this taxi driver told me abt wad happened 2 yrs ago in trellis tower on 13th floor[dirty things] so spooky u noe~ hmm.. luckily i was soo tired abd dint think of it and went to slp, if not i will look like panda today.lolx~

Shall update again abt today if i haf the time. Tata`

unsure.of.the.feelings.i.feel.towards.u

so blessed____________________ 6:21 AM