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Friday, April 30, 2004

eng exam
he is nt worth my love

so the previous entry was written b4 i went to sch.Was really feeling disgusted and all lorx. How can he sent me something that i nv do b4? Was he really drunk when he wrote the msg? He wasn't a drinker, he wasnt a smoker that once know, not sure now lor.. maybe he really has change.. quite dissapointed in with at times. He said i can call him, but too bad lor.. lost his number liao.. and i once memorise it but then now erased from my memory and heart. Who will want to keep his memories? Sometimes i really think that i was being foolish to love him.. really.. wad had he done for me? he only made me suffer in everything.. even my studies dropped.. he made me miss him so much.. made me love him so much and now he left me.. haiz.. dunno lar.. i just know that he is not worth my love.. really.. like i said.. i would rather love someone who is 100 times better than him and not love him than him lor.. haiz...

Anyway today eng paper was not bad. Then teacher made us bring books home, lucky i had not many books to bring home.. after school, went to orchard with Denna. On the way she was testing my chem knowledge.. hello darling?? i sux at that.. lolx.. i dunno why i just dun like science lor.. but i managed to answer some of the questions. We went to kinokunia at first cos darl wan to buy dunno wad eva comics then i bought mine also.. haha.. then we went to search the dunno wad place and walked so far when we did not need to.. anyway that place forgot the name lar.. ate ice cream for lunch there and i m currently broke cos of that meal.. haha.. but nvm lar.. not everytime eat that wad.. onli once..

After that went home lorx.. my darl is such a crappy person.. but i love it.. haha.. anyway one piece of good news--> i am a comform real dancer liao!!! yipeeee...!!!! My no. is 152 lor.. so far away frm my cls.. *sobz²* but nvm.. cos i had always wish to be a real dancer and my dream had come true :) kk.. better end here..

so blessed____________________ 4:02 PM

Thursday, April 29, 2004

english mid yr tml
all the best

Flunk Physic test. Had ss made up lesson after sch but not many ppl attended, but i think that was a useful lesson and a peaceful lesson without some noisy ppl there.A maths that time ms tan allowed us to dicuss in small grps which i think is a very useful way of learning with friends. Got back the geo project and we gt lower than the mark that i was expecting.well, nvm..wad to do? last min work is like tt..
tml english mid yr paper.. all the best to every1 out there.. :)
wont be receiving msg from kris for 2 wks cos his paper also starts tml.All the best to him too.. dis yr somemore o level..
Hopefully i can do better this yr, i dun wish to be the old me last yr. I really wish i can be better.

so blessed____________________ 4:21 PM

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

just finish changing the cls blog.. decided to make it alive again.. haiz..my lil bro had done something v dissapointing.. i realised that i cared for him more than anything.. yesterday i talked to him, adviced him and all.. that was the first time we really sat down and i talked to him in such a way.. hopefully he will really change.. if nt i really dunno wad to do..
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tOday dunno why i m in such a good mood.. every where i go i will smile and say hi to ppl i see.. am i mad? yes?? lolx.. i m unsure wad makes me so too.. nth much happening in sch except that we are able to communicate like last time again :) assembly today was talk on the nkf thingy and there was some lame skit being put up.. pccg lesson was on knot.. tot it would be the last lesson? everyone tot so.. till we met marryan.. at the end my leader gt scolding frm mrs sandra ong for wrong info.. aya dunno lar.. anyway, took the ndp costume mesurement already.. tot i dun need to take cos i m a reserve, at the end all had to take, so take lor..
after assembly, stayed back in sch for a while then went for maths tution, cos tml got a maths test mah.. ya ya.. kinda scared cos got coordinate geo which i had done so badly in my last emaths test.. how to survive?? my lil bro appeared for tution after 'missing' for 2 wks... that was after the lesson taught yesterday by every1 in the family.. hopefully he will change...

so blessed____________________ 6:32 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

nth much today.. suppose to haf ss and chem tests but at the end both also dun haf.. kinda angry over it cos i studied yesterday!! haiz.. nvm lar.. maybe treat it as a form of revision for mid yr.. Today suppose to go for study grp for maths after sch but at the end decided nt to go cos i understood that chapter already.. maybe i can just revise by myself.. Dunno wad is happening to mrs gan.. 2 wks nv come our cls already.. worried for her and worried for our chem exam..
( hope that mrs gan will recover soon :) and i m glad that krissandi is recovering :) hopefully he will do well for his mid yr and o level :)

so blessed____________________ 3:40 PM

Monday, April 26, 2004

juz came back frm my napfa test.. damn tiring.. dis yr so slack, but luckily i pass but dis time got bronze i tink instead of silver.. haiz.. :x pe lesson that time mr wong scolded our cls for the worst attendence for ndp.. haiz.. we innocent one also kana.. haiz.. wadeva.. then took ht and wt.. found out that i m nt the shortest!! yes yes~ oh ya.. ms tan said i got the chance to become real dancer for ndp!! yes yes!! e-maths lesson went thru the test paper.. dis time i real hopeless.. gt below 10.. i think my worst marks for all my tests and exam ever~ well.. dun care liao lar.. just study and like this lor.. these days quite close to racheal lor.. think that we can really communicare well.. we can just talk non stop everytime we talk.. dunno lar..

ok lar.. me wanna go wash up then after that gt tests to study.. byebye~

(hope that krissandi can recover as soon as possible, so that he can study well for his mid-year)

so blessed____________________ 5:16 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2004

aRen't u all going to congratulate me? lolx..i've finally completed my f&n whole report and it's so thick! I stayed up late last night to do my conclusion and my cover page, the rest done long time ago already, now onli left the file that ms chew going to provide us.
Had hard time asking ppl for wang xin lin- ai ni.. finally got it from christine! love u woman! i m so crazy over this song and also ppl in sch kept singing this song.. wan to buy the album once i gt the $..
Ayo.. monday Napfa test 5 stations.. then my 2.4 km ler?? scared scared liaox--
Oh ya.. talking abt my friendship with her.. i dun think that we are really meant to be bahz.. cos i jus cant talk with her like i talk with my other friends.. it's jus so difficult.. haiz.. maybe she is really nt for me...

so blessed____________________ 10:05 AM

Saturday, April 24, 2004

today's ndp practice dun seem rite, transport delay, our cls attendance sux and we're in hot soup now.. then reached mandai camp already we had to sit there to wait for the sec 1s for dunno how long, practice time onli abt 1hr30mins.. haiz.. but we abt last 10 mins then did everything properly.. reached back in sch at almost 2 lor.. then no choice, had to go for my tution at 3.30 pm.. actually wanted to go for 2 lessons one, but tcher had to rest at 5.15.. if go two lessons then i had to go at 1.45 but who noes ndp delay and delay.. haiz.. dunno lar.. b4 tution, monica and i went to mos burger to makan and met a few ppl there.. yea.. then went for tution lor..
finally ndp and netball practice stop for the time being.. if nt how to study??? haiz.. dunno lar.. tml going to mug for the whole day(hopefully) if nt i wun be able to finish my revision..

so blessed____________________ 6:20 PM

Friday, April 23, 2004

hAiZ.. eXaM's iN tWo WeEkS tImE...
aNyWaY, tOday social studies the test quite wad d lor.. tcher played a song and we had to finish copying the notes that is useful for the test within the one song time.. then 3 songs to finish the qn.. cant finish lor and it's over 12 marks lor~ haiz.. like tt exam sure die lor..
Ndp today our cls thin got more than 1o ppl nv attend the practice haiz... i was a sub for yin xin.. she did come but she is still running a fever.. must take care worz.. then cos i no. 94 mah.. then shi ting also didnt come, a gal frm 1/2 sub her lor.. think she got a bit of mental prob... i m nt saying anything, but yea.. those who dunno then nvm cos i dun want to make the person really look bad.. we all made fun of her and though she seemed to be happy abt it, but i feel that if i were her and normal, i would really feel insulted and all lor.. haiz... dunno lar.. so poor thing.. onli 13 and she is already like tt.. ok.. talking abt ndp practice, today rained heavily, so we had to be divided into the 8 lines and practiced.. ok lor.. at the end after the rain stopped, went to field to combine practice.. anyway.. like tt lor.. tml going mandai camp.. sianz arz..
exams coming liao and i m so scared~ i dun want to follow my step in sec 2 again.. i wish to do better dis time lor.. but i just scared that i cant do it even though i started my revision liao.. haiz... dunno lar...

so blessed____________________ 8:56 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

jus came back frm chinese tution.
today had 3 periods of a-maths lesson, tcher took away cme period also, didn understand wad she was talking abt and was so blur~ next wk got a few tests and also eng mid yr paper.. kinda worry already.
mrs ong didnt come to sch today and this means that we were nt sack yet. after sch meeting held by marryann and zixin.. scolded and all by marryann, this time with the whole psls.. then there is a time where we were to sit with our grps to get fone nos frm each other so that we can communicate better.. my grp was the onl grp left after the fone number thing.. we talked heart-heart, soul-soul..we voiced out our unhappiness and everything and we tried to help each other and all so that we can actually improve.. well.. i think in this way, we can really learn to change for the better. belinda was the one who started this thing and she said dun think other grp do like us which i think is true.. i think that our bond with each other is very strong, we dun take our duty as duty, we take them like learning journey and we help each other along the way. well, i m nt saying other grps are bad.. i m jus saying that we psls should be behaving like this, instead of jus wanting to have fun and dun care abt attitude and all.. i really wish that all of us as psls will really reflect on ourselves and change.. serve the sch with pride..

so blessed____________________ 6:49 PM

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Change for the better
Prove that i m not a useless leader

Today started with a very bad mood cos went to cls was afraid of facing mell and all.. went in to cls then started to do my work that i missed out in cls and all.. then mell came in and she didnt talk to me like we used to do every morning while doing work.. i held back my tears and all.. e-maths test i am sure 100% i fail it cos i didnt really do my revision and once i looked at the first qns i know i m dead meat..well.. wad to do? f&n practical was ok.. and was interesting.. see ppl cook different type of dishes and all.. and shu hui.. better take care of ur hand k?

pccg lesson with 1/7 was not that smooth.. we were late cos of the practical test and then mrs ong saw psls going to the respective sec 1 classes and was angry cos most of us took our own sweet time.. oh well.. dunno lar.. assembly talked abt the consequences of crime and everything.. showed us how prison life is like for boys or girls.. ok lar.. then after assembly.. one grp of us sat at the canteen eating our cooking.. haha.. so 'healthy'.. i think things are fine btw me and mell already.. cos jus now practical that time she asked me when we bumped into each other if i had done with my cooking.. oh yey.. great that we are ok already. :)

There were less than 10 ppl attended the psls meeting and mrs ong came in started lecturing us and all stuff.. well.. i agree all was our fault and she said she is serious in closing down the psl cos we are not up to her standard.. she is giving us another chance to prove to us.. if we do not meet her expectation.. she will really propose to mrs chua to close down psl.. tml she wanted to meet all the psls to sack those who are not up to her standard and also those who are willing to step out.. haiz.. dunno lar.. i just feel that her lecturing was rite.. but hopefully that we can change and work hard to meet up to her standard and serve the school with pride and all..

so blessed____________________ 4:47 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Today woke up and did my eng assingment which was suppose to be an essay of 500 words.. i took so long to do that! but i manage to finish.. studied for my e-maths test also. Wad i do today is sleep, wake up, study, sleep, wake up.. dun wish to think abt the thing anymore.. i really dun noe wad to do.. i will leave it like this.. see wad will happen next.. i just dun haf the courage to talk things out.. cos i m scared that i will mess things up again.. that time with fidah also like tt.. well.. all my fault.. wad to do? Anway wrote a long email to mellya.. hopefully she will understand me.

Just now called andy to ask what was happening in sch and abt 2.4 km run. I think i missed out a lot of things today.. haiz.. anyway andy got 4th~ congrates to him :) hua yee first for the girls.. wow.. dunno how i will do when it is my turn to run.. haha.. well.. cant imagine it.

Have been listening to christian songs that zixin had burnt for me.. i felt so much better and peaceful feeling in me. my heart do not have those feelings of anger, hate or negative feelings u can think of.. wad i can feel is love, peace and all... but do my close friends want to forgive for wad i had done? I have forgiven them cos jesus too forgive everyone here so easily.. isn't it great to love instead of hate? haiz.. dunno lar..

so blessed____________________ 3:03 PM

Monday, April 19, 2004

fidah sent me an email.. well.. yea.. think i m at the wrong too.. i am wrong.. SORRY~! i dun mean to make u all look bad.. my blog is meant for me to write down all my feelings and nth else.. i nv want to hurt or sae bad abt ppl.. really.. i really hope that i will not loose this friendship.. mellya, fidah.. u two are always my great sisters.. love u~

anyway, not going sch tml as i said.. came back frm poly clinic and doctor gave me 1 day mc.. hey~ tml 2.4 km run i cant run means gotta run with those who need to re-run? haiz..

so blessed____________________ 8:15 PM

nt going sch tml not cos i wan to pon but cos i m running a fever rite now.. after this i will go and see doctor.. maybe good also.. can let me have a day to really think deeply abt this problem and let me have enough rest.. haiz.. i noe i m at the wrong some how.. but wad to do? guess they wun forgive me and also it wun really matter that they haf one less friend.. i m useless.. really useless freak..
well.. i will make do with wad i haf now.. grow up and learn things.. kk.. gotta go see doctor now.. bye bye~

so blessed____________________ 6:56 PM

Hurt
deeply

What will u feel when friends that u treasure the most treated u coldly out of a sudden? haiz.. today my closest frens did that to me. the reason was jus abt the geo project.. i wrote in the entry last thursday saying that fidah and i did the most work and all.. eileen read it and told mel and fidah and they started to treat me coldly.. i wrote tt doesnt mean that i m angry or blame them.. why didnt they sit down and talk to me and ask for explanation? i m really hurt so deeply, even the cut in my hand is not pain at all.. i felt numb physically but emotionally hurt.. just cos of this small thing they left me.. fidah and mell had been my close friends since sec 1.. dun they understand me enough? if i m angry with them, i will talk to them face to face.. haiz..
even though early dismissal cos of our sch band getting gold, i didnt go home straight.. thanks to those who were there.. especially my sheperd who never give up on me.. zixin.. i love u~ thanx for being there for me.. they just left without any words.. u noe how hurt do i feel?? last wk cos i got so much things and i fell sick.. i didnt even complain~
went home at 2++ with my darling.. thanks for being there too darling.. i m at a lost.. dunno how to talk to them.. do they still wan to listen to me? i noe they hate me for saying abt the geo project.. i noe alot of ppl hate me!! but i noe there is always ppl who love me.. especially jesus.. he loves us no matter how bad we are.. i m thankful i chose the rite choice to follow him and also there are ppl who cares for me no matter how bad i m.. but do they too? no~! we have been so close for 3 yrs.. i share all the things with them.. yet cos of this little thing.. they leave me.. wad am i going to do???
think i gotta fail for my chinese test.. mind was blank cos of the crying-

so blessed____________________ 3:30 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2004

Attitude
Love doesn't matter anymore

i finished studying for my ss and chinese already, now left with e-maths. So long since i really sat down and studied, last yr i didnt have the mood to study and ended up in 3/6. well, darl asked if i regret for not appealing to a better cls and i said not, as long as i m not affected, that will be fine with me. I know my cls most ppl are jus dun like to study and creating troubles for teachers and all ( i m not saying who ) but i think no matter what cls i end up in does not matter at all, wad count are my attitude and effort towards my work lor..
Talking about love, i mean BGR.. sometimes i just envy ppl who can last for so long, example my president(PSL) almost 2 yrs liao.. haiz.. is it really hard to find a guy like reagan who can talk things out when they haf problems and all? haiz.. maybe i shd really not be involve in this kinda of things now.. hong xiang is rite.. betta not mix relationship and studies together.. well.. i m trying to lar.. thought abt the past.. dunno why i was so foolish to go into so deep.. at the end the one got hurt was me.. lucky now after the break up.. the ppl that i like are nt tt serious anymore..
kk.. i think i crap too much.. end here.. tata

so blessed____________________ 3:39 PM

Magnificent

Wow! today woke up at 9 which i had not been waking up so 'late' since sch re opened this yr. Oh ya, friends told me that our deyi band got GOLD! oh yey~ i knew it~ oh lala.. they rawkz man! worked so hard under the hot sun somemore is everyday.. if they nv get gold.. gonna kill the judges :x
sorry about the rubbish i m talking abt cos i jus dunno wad to blog abt.. maybe u guys will say 'dunno then dun blog lar' haha.. yea.. true but i just feel like blogging lor..
Today gonna be busy for me.. gotta study for chinese and social studies which the tests are tml :x hopefully can survive bah.. gonna relax myself and not stress lor.. chinese i learnt the spelling already.. left the meaning and sentence making.. so should be able to learn finish..
k lar.. guess gotta end here for now cos nth to blog abt..

so blessed____________________ 9:29 AM

Saturday, April 17, 2004

We were the reason..
The reason to live

All the best to our sch band members for today's syf~! this morning took 6 panadols cos desperately want to recover from my sickness! it's so terrible! during practice i endure cos tt's wad i shd do even though i felt cold, hot at the same time and wanted to faint.. on the way to and back from mandai camp i slpt cos need to rest.. didnt go for tution cos could not tahan anymore, even if i go also waste $.. cant concentrate at all..
anyway was desperately looking for poly clinics but at the end didnt go cos all close.. haiz.. oh ya.. just now went to popular which i long time didnt go ;p he was there as a cashier.. this time we didnt smile at each other cos dunno why but for me cos i no strenght to smile.. i took the stuff i wanted to buy then went to him lor.. asked him if there is poly clinic around here and he said at tp lor 8 -_-" who would want to take bus there.. "so far~" then he said since i asked so he told me lor.. err.. wadeva.. came home studied abit.. watched tv abit and fell aslp...
i want to go for service!!!! so long didnt go already... haiz.. plus i had not been seeking him these days cos was too tired and everything... i better do..
exams are round the corner and i can feel that stress are filling me~! help!!

so blessed____________________ 5:50 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

Flu,sore throat
sick~

My flu and sore throat are getting worse, in sch almost vomitted alot of time. The international friendship day thing was successful i would say cos the food all sold finish.. lol.. the ppl dun even care to noe abt the countries but onli care abt the food. we were very busy cooking upstairs lor.. haha.. but i think most ppl don really dare to eat the gado gado.. anyway.. i'm so glad tt another job is done! dunno why i felt so cold when weather is cold.. haiz... then ndp didnt do cos cant tahan.. was coughing and sneezing.. but was fun :)
hey i finally have another god-bro and guess who? sean~ ehehe.. then just now at the hall Gabriel and him shoke hand.. so glad tt they are both brothers :p
hey!!! my geo project done wrongly! arrrggghhh!!! noooooooO!!!! i dun wan to do...
my week end no more rest for me.. need to do so many stuff.. haiz..
really dying//

so blessed____________________ 7:20 PM

Falling sick
Not enough rest

Now onli 5.38 am and i m already prepared to go school cos later need to meet netta at 6.30 to prepare the stall and everything. yesterday stayed in school until almost 8 cos need to prepare for international friendship day and all. Was tiring but fun though.. then went home bro scolded cos last minuted then chiong the geo project, wad to do? haha.. actually i still had to do research for another package but then too tired and fell asleep so decided not to do. i think i do the most work lor.. haiz.. then this mellya always ask fidah and me to do the job.. hao wen and eileen nth d lor.. unfair! i m so tired even though i slpt at 11++.. haiz.. this week damn busy and i HAVENT start my revision!! Exams coming ler!!! stress!!!!!
Okok.. gotta go now.. later still got ndp.. haiz.. cant rest..

so blessed____________________ 5:37 AM

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Tired girl
Need a rest

i m so so tired and i cant rest yet. Had to chiong geo project which we had touched for the first time today and needed to hand in in 2 days time.. stress!! just now after sch fidah, mel and eileen and i took taxi to my hse to put our stuff and then chiong to our destinations.. eileen and fidah went sentosa and mel, regina(mel's friend) and me went china town, esplaned, clark quey.. had some fun though we were so tired.. and then met at tp there to makan dinner and planned for everything then they came back take their stuff and gave them some duties and they left.. but i havent done my job! still got tons of things to do plus tml got chinese spelling which i not yet learn! i may faint anytime this wk.. haiz.. so busy.. jus now ms chew didnt come lor and practical canceled.. chicken.. made us bring so heavy and had to bring back again.. then we f&n that time 3 periods free.. was eating fruits.. haha.. even the relief tcher gotta eat too :p and we were also talking crap..
I think today's assembly talk was useful for all of us.. how we shd handle our time for exam and everything.. haiz.. so many things are happening and i m stress!tml still needa do some shopping for ingredients for friday's international friendship day the cooks.. haiz.. tired... ok lar.. me gotta do my work liao.. gonna faint soon~

so blessed____________________ 8:35 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

an imperfect girl
searching for love

i m so happy... lalala.. i top the cls for a-maths latest test! first time in my whole life u noe?!but then when i gt back the paper.. my mood and feeling was nutreal.. just half happy and sad.. dunno why.. but my chem was ok lar.. at least improved.. ss lesson was interesting.. showed the zombie mtv..recess tt time kept hugging my dear gal frens.. haha.. think duckson saw it :p jus now went ntuc to buy ingredients for tml practical test, then tried out already and all was in a mess and maid was scolding me for not knowing how to cut the vegetables and all :p well... wad to do? seldom do hsework wad.. and the result is this. :p
tml gonna rush our geo project and i guess haf to skip my netball training for our geo project which we had not even touch it at all! tml will be the first time.. and we maybe travelling around sg to take pix.. and reports..

Anyway, today supposed to be our 1 yr anniversary if we are still together.. but well.. too bad.. wad to do?

tears will not wipe away our memories and it will stay with me forever. I still love you..

so blessed____________________ 3:36 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

lala... i m so happy!! found alot of my p5 and p6's cls mates.. in the sense of their blogs! i couldnt believe they have blogs! :X i m nt being sacastic.. jus shocked and excited at the same time.. lalala :)

so blessed____________________ 4:56 PM

today morning happened to walk past 1/8 cls room and dis sean shouted my name so loud! guess the whole 1/8 noe me already.wad to do. then jus now after flag raising, the psls were to gather at netball court to dicuss abt the international friendship day, was having fun in my grp. that monica was so excited~ asked me to cook dis and dat, as if i m an expert in cooking :p. u noe wad, i feel like killing someone!!! she broke me up with him and now wad? my friend's friend's ex! lucky she dunno tt she is her ex's friend.. if nt the gurl will be hurt again by her! well.. those who dunno wad happen then too bad.. i jus feel so angry with her!!! wad exactly she wants? arggghhhh... recess time was there cursing her.. somemore she was there near me.. except she didnt noe tt i was cursing her.. she is a b*tch!
after sch went to repair my dad's hp at nokia centre.. was dragging myself there.. bag is so heavy! kk.. i shall end here..

so blessed____________________ 3:28 PM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

i'm wondering.. how did i manage to pull thru the times where i struggled to forget him.. i m nt sure what i told christine wad she shd do will do her any gd. i m sure she hates me now for nt supporting her.. but i jus dun wish to see her falling and unable to get up again.. the onli thing i wish she will understand is tt.. ppl arnd her care for her and do not wish to see her crying over things tt r nt worth her tears.. there are things that are more important than love.. no matter where he is.. near or far.. u still have to let go when he wanted u out of his life.. all i can sae is.. all is up to u... whether u like it or nt.. we haf to learn to stand up once again.. trying to kill urself will never solve anything...

so blessed____________________ 8:12 PM

i m back~ went to watch into the mirror with fidah~ nt scary at all and the story like very complicated.. eh one thing i dun dare to do now--> dun dare to look at the mirror :p b4 the show started,we went to arcade and played.. wow.. didnt noe fidah's arcade skill so gd.. haha.. i long time nv go also..
tml sch again.. die die i didnt really touch books since thursday :p okae.. i betta get going now

so blessed____________________ 7:36 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2004

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain
You will make it through the rain

i can make it through.. to forget the past.. the sad past tt i had..

so blessed____________________ 4:18 PM

i m back.. haiz.. kinda no mood and sad over things.. my pink coloured, somemore my fav ankel socks confiscated by ms tan and it is with mr goh, if i wan it back i must go for detention.. at the end i dun wan lor.. :( haiz.. but was having fun during practice.. given a cap.. quite ok lar.. then after ndp went makan with monica and then went for tution.
tution no mood to do anything.. and then home..

so blessed____________________ 4:03 PM

morning... going for ndp later but lemme crap first, okae? :p
yesterday went jurong east swimming complex with 8 guys(anton, and his 2 friends, simone, andy, lyn(1/8),sean(1/8),weixian) and 3 gals(tess, huayee) including me.. so paiseh.. haha.. we were suppossed to meet at yishun mrt at 1.30 but i was there early lor.. wait and wait then dis sean reached and he approached me when i dunno him at all..and i was like so blur~ haiz.. nvm.. then after they came we went makan then headed for our destination.. well the guys always wait for us.. haha.. the gal's toilet so many ppl~ and they were complaining and complaining.. err...well... had a very good time there lor and my leg so short~ can paddle and they had to take good care of me :p we found sebastian also there lor.. we were like unhappy cos he went there juz to see someone and that gal is like so irritated by him.. whenever we see him we would quickly go away.. and u noe wad? he was alone!
anyway, reached hm abt 9++.. was scared bro scold but at the end didnt scold.. heng arz.. next time we plan after hol to go ice skating! it's so fun~~ ^-^

so blessed____________________ 6:27 AM

Friday, April 09, 2004

Labour day today~ and i m fasting (hopefully i can last) today woke up early and did my f&n for 3 hrs but still havent finish! later going jurong east to swim :) going to enjoy myself today.. ehehe.. tata`

so blessed____________________ 11:31 AM

Thursday, April 08, 2004

so i took taxi to sch today cos cant drag myself to take bus to sch.. nth really much happening in sch today.. tml going swimming at jurong east there.. yesh~ i m so excited~ from last time wanna go but didnt go.. actually zixin asked me after sch to go for cg outing tml but why she asked so late??~ if she asked early then i can make it lo.. physics test dunno why kept postponing.. tcher so free arz.. anyway today our sch speech day which is once in a yr and miss yap coming back to be the guest-of-honour.. how i wish i could go but then i got chinese tution later.. haiz.. how i wish i can c my friends performing on stage.. but too bad lor.. if onli ppl can record for me to lemme c.. ok lar.. me stop here..

so blessed____________________ 1:57 PM

i m still so tired~ well, it's very early in the morning.. lemme crap b4 i go sch k? yesterday was a fun yet tiring day. reached sch almost late cos when i boared the bus i juz realised i didnt bring my wallet with me~ i was like so malu and went down the bus and rushed home to take the wallet then rushed down again.. had a-maths test, i was so happy tt i noe how to do :) it's kinda normal paper, juz like assignment tt we do everyday in cls or as hmwk.. then f&n went lab the whole 3 periods so shuang.. ehehe.. then ms chew told us topics to study for mid year and it's so much! brain kant store so much info.. gonna burst soon.. after tt went for pccg lesson and it was horrible.. dun wish to tok abt it though.. assembly taught the whole sch the cheers(the whole psls and councillors) but it was horrible, especially the sec 3s.. cant hear their voices.. and then ms sherly lee came and scolded and talked to them abt sch value and everything.. at the end the sec 3s had to stay behind for 'remidial' with ms lee... but dose psls who have cca later in the noon can leave first and so i left with fidah and caiqing.. had lunch and there our netball started.. was fun~ bullied by the sec 1s.. haha.. actually we all bullied each others.. they are so friendly and playful, but their netball skill not there yet...
was dragging myself home after tt and reached hm almost 8 pm.. took shower, had dinner and slpt straight and yet i m still so tired!!!

so blessed____________________ 5:45 AM

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

tink the pop guy nt working there anymore :C.today missed reading period cos psls and coucillors needa practice the cheers again. Social studies today was special, ms poh showed us mtv song: zombie very long time ago d song, then also a lady talked on sinhalese thing.. quite interesting. english comprehension isnt that hard.. could finish very early and down there sleepin'.. geo lesson was fun too.. i found that tourism the topic very interesting and fun :) chemistry was blur blur.. taught the chp 6 dun really understand it.. then had quiz.. i was enjoying it.. got anymore for me to do? haha.. it's the drawing of ionic compounds the structure..real fun.

so blessed____________________ 3:27 PM

Monday, April 05, 2004

lalala.. i m finally home~
just now mrs ong called for the psls and coucillors to teach us the sch cheers and we gotta go on stage and teach the whole sch dis coming wed -_-"
yipee~ pe today i m nt last.. ehehe.. put in more effort cos dun wish to slack anymore.. physics test is postponed to dis coming thurs.. so lucky cos i didnt study~ haha.. yesterday slacked the whole day..
after sch accompanied elaine to buy bubble tea and flagged taxi for her..her whole body aching since last thurs.. poor her.. elaine.. must rest more k?
i m still kinda akward talking to fidah since the incident.. well.. trying hard to talk normally like we used to be..
hey, recess i ate alot today.. dunno why so hungry.. ate a bowl of noodle plus spagetthi.. no wander i m dis fat.. lolx..
k.. gotta end here for today.. nth much to crap abt.. byebye

so blessed____________________ 3:43 PM

Sunday, April 04, 2004

Happy belated birthday to my daughter, hui fang! sorri gal.. daddy got no mood yesterday~!

Happy birthday to my dear christine!
tml u gotta get something frm me :p
dun cry tml hor :p

so blessed____________________ 10:11 AM

mornin' everyone out there.. was in cls forum with arifin, gavin and sebas.. we were like crazy ppl 'playing pillow fight' well.. i m sure alot of ppl blur blur :p
anyway.. was feeling rather low last nite.. lucky sis was nt sleeping at hm.. so got the whole room to myself.. cried myself to slp again thinking why i m like this like tt.. and at the end nv come to conclusion, i fell aslp..

to fidah:
thanks fidah for everything.. hopefully our friendship will grow stronger :) friends forever ya?

so blessed____________________ 8:31 AM

Saturday, April 03, 2004

To Fidah:

i'm sorri abt everything. I noe i was too sensitive and was juz concern abt u.. i didnt noe i would felt so hurt at that moment when u didnt want to tell me.. i shd have respected ur decision.
She is still ur friend, but let me tell u.. eileen still bad mouth abt her to other ppl today.. i didnt mean to bao to eileen but then it's the fact.. since u said that gal is still u friend, i will not wan to noe anymore.. i will respect u. i m sorri fidah.. maybe it's part of our friendship. i really hope that u will forgive me fidah.. pls pls pls~! love u so much fidah

so blessed____________________ 6:51 PM

had ndp today at mandai camp.. was very hot and tiring.. they provided lunch for us too but then onli plain noodle but was thankful tt we haf food.. can u imagine other poor country ppl starving and everything? we shd be thankful for wad we haf..
she didnt go sch today.. actually wanted to haf a gd tok with her.. but haiz.. sorri gal...
ndp ended quite late and i was late for my tution too.. haiz.. k la.. nth to write le

so blessed____________________ 6:27 PM

Friday, April 02, 2004

had a gd evening today.. was watching tv and everything then zixin called me and then online and everything.. wanted to apologise to her but then she nt online.. didnt dare to call her too.. btw.. chatted with joshua lim for the first time so many replies frm each other.. :P changed impression of him liao.. in the sense like a friend lar.. and when i opened my friendster.. guess wad??? jackson ang whom i tot nv use internet one added me to his friendster~ omg~ he is finally updated himself.. jk jk..

okae.. gonna end here for now.. hopefully tml will be a betta day for me :)

so blessed____________________ 10:55 PM

tOday gd and bad day for me.. gd was tt we psl planned a b'dae party for mrs ong and we were having great time celebrating! haha.. we 'trashed' her till she very poor thing... :p but then she enjoyed it u noe!! i m sure she is very touched by all of us for dis b'dae.. some ex deyian also come back for her birthday celebration.. her b'dae actually is tml but we celebrated it first..

my cls ppl are having a lot of problems!!! i really dunno wad to do.. even though i m the cls welfare rap.. but wad can i do to stop them?? ms twang talked to the cls abt the cls forum and abt ms tan wanted to be member of it.. i actually agree to ms tan joining cos somehow she is our cls form teacher and she shd get to noe us betta..

didnt do ndp today cos was having stomach cramp..someone who is one of my friend tt i trust and love to be with dun think tt i m trustworthy! i m so hurt.. i cried again jus now.. see how cry baby am i? i cried nt cos of the thing but a lot of things.. at the end i went with hivan instead of her cos i was so hurt to talk and dunno how to open my mouth to talk to her..

i m sorry if u happen to read dis.. but it's just that i m hurt..

anyway.. failed my emaths test for the first time.. no feeling abt it and i think chem also going to fail cos i dun even noe wad the paper is abt!! haiz... why m i like dis???

so blessed____________________ 7:22 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

Yestersday nite
Had a talk with ms tan over the fone last nite regarding the cls forum where some ppl posted some posts which may hurt ppl's feeling without them realising. I was one of the victim anyway and i m very dissapointed with them. Do they have to do this? What do they get in return? Anyway, thanks ms tan for being there for me and i complaint to god abt this with my heart aching so much crying so badly.. i realised tt i need him so much.. i had not been seeking him these days cos i was lack of confidence.. i felt so much betta after praying.. hopefully my cls ppl will realise wad they ahd done wrong one day. If onli i m still with 2/5 where we had so much fun time together.. studying and enjoying at the same time.. we were juz like one family.. but now we are seperated.. we had to adopt to the new environment and cls.. at these things occurred.. why is it so hard???

cross-country
this yr's cross country was fun! heheh.. at least i m not the last hundreds of gals.. i ran alot actually... but it was tough! 3.2 km ler.. how can a gal like me run so much? haha actually can lar.. if i wan to train my stamina..
I found that there are alot of gd runners frm 1/7! wow.. must congrats them next wk.. after my run, monica and i were there cheering for every1 .. frm sec 3 to sec 5! haha.. we were enjoying it.. Panther the champ dis yr~ yipeee... thanks to the runners in our hse.. :)

j8
after the whole thing was over, alot of ppl were waiting for taxi, including mell, fidah, simone, bell and elieen~ we were supposed to take taxi to j8 but alot of ppl and we had hard time hailing taxi~ haha.. we were like mad moving places.. trying so hard.. but we managed to reach j8.. met alot of ppl there.. including ms twang where we talked for a while at the food court and she had to leave for her course.. SMRV+ elieen actually wanted to watch movie but at the end we didnt watch so we rot at the food court and blah blah blah..

came hm and had a 1-hr nap and still sleepy!!! tml gt test some more... arrrgghhh

note: sorry zixin..

so blessed____________________ 4:44 PM