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Wednesday, March 31, 2004

I lost temper at my 1/7 today cos they were juz too choosy.. when they were asked to group themselves.. there is one boy who is left out and no grp wan to take him in.. i scolded them like hell and finally there is a grp that was 'willing' to take him in... it made me miss my 2/5 alot.. maybe they are juz sec 1 and havent taste the feeling of being seperated frm the cls tt u had been together for 2 yrs.. hopefully they will treat everyone in the cls equally..

anyway.. the bread tt i cooked was over cooked and was chao da!! arrggghhh... why didn i c the fire??? at the end didn get to eat my own cooking and had to taste different ones frm friends..

so blessed____________________ 6:10 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

tOday bag real heavy arz.. always 'died' on the way to sch with fidah.. almost every1 in cls didn noe how to do the a-maths hmwk and all asked me.. *as if i noe like tt*
anyway.. ss lesson today was betta.. not as bored.. then a-maths lesson was scary.. mrs chua and mrs ang came in to watch us.. can die ler.. i was like so scared.. haha.. at the end mrs ang spoke to us abt the importance of a-maths.. saying tt the thing we learn this yr is 60% of the whole 2-year course.. chem lesson i understood a little.. it seemed tt the whole lesson it was onli me who took down wad mrs gan was talking abt and she wanted mine!! she said she wanted to see wad will happen in 1 mths time.. err.. dun really get wad she meant.. she said teaching our cls can vomit blood :x
took bus home and aloy and weiliang also took the same bus.. they were going toa payoh to cut hair.. omg.. go so far to juz cut a hair..
well.. today i m in betta mood.. yea.. guess g2g do my maths revision for tml test.. buaiz

so blessed____________________ 4:21 PM

Monday, March 29, 2004

i m finally done with my f&n thing which gotta hand in on wed cos tml gonna be the day for my maths revision.. actually mel asked me to help her also.. but where the hell will i noe to find for her and wad she wants? later she dun like scold again.. haiz.. dunno her lar.. everyday always give me with those type of looks which really irritate me.. Why cant i at least to have someone who is my best friend? till now.. i dun tink i haf any best friend who i can really let out all my sorrows and he or she will be willing to hear :x

haiz.. dunno y suddenly so sad :(

happy birthday to my ex-

so blessed____________________ 7:00 PM

yO yo.. jus came back frm sch.. straight after sch came home cos wanna make sure tt my chem bk is at hm.. i couldnt find it in sch so was a bit worried...PE was tough today and rachel, elaine and i purposely ran last.. ehehe..made us run early in the morning.. k la.. nth else to crap today :p

i noe his name.. lalala

so blessed____________________ 2:50 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2004

lalala... watched the eye 2 with my darling denna.. but then it wasnt scary at all!!! arrggghhh!!! why not scary?? i want it to be scary lar!!!! and also i finally noe his name!!! shh.. cant tell u guys yet.. :p
lalala... i m so happy.. lalala.. but then i hate it when i reached hm and my elder bro was like asking why a guy kept calling me and asked me to ask him not to always call me! why?? why he dun trust me??? sux lor.. guy call doesnt mean i m doing something wrong rite?? haiz.. i noe who called.. maybe anton.. but then he asked for homework wad.. i wasnt at home mah.. maybe he wanted to noe abt the hmwk eagerly or something? haiz...

so blessed____________________ 8:24 PM

why so fast sunday? i still not enough rest!! Yesterday didnt slp after i post the entry and ended up online the whole noon -_-" and a primary sch friend which i dun really haf memory abt her added me to her friendster.. ehehe.. but then i m glad tt i found her.. c: anyway i slpt quite early.. i tink almost 9 at nite but then was awaken at 11 like tt cos my lil bro was scolded upside down by my older bro.. well.. his own fault..

yesterday simon, n.d, anton and tess they all went for a swim at jurong east there.. they kept asking me to go but then i got tution and i cant skip tt.. if i do.. i will have to go for 7 lessons next month! :x
but then i miss the fun!!! they are going again maybe during june hol.. i will make sure it's on my birthday :p
haha..

so blessed____________________ 9:55 AM

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Where is my slp??

i m very very tired now..zZz.. ndp today again and formation on the field lor.. so hot, so tiring
.. i sub arifin again and today didnt crap alot.. no energy lar.. then tution also wanna slp those type.. no mood and everything.. k la.. maybe wanna catch up with my slp later.. buaiz..

so blessed____________________ 3:56 PM

Friday, March 26, 2004

wow.. today ss tcher didnt come then we had to do wkbk.. but then halfway the whole cls gotta go for health check and guess wad? I WAS THE LAST PERSON TO BE CHECKED!! cos my index no is 19 and hai van should be the last but then she didnt come today.. luckily there are ppl who can entertain me :) then after tt english lesson which was supposed to be the broadcasting thing again, we watched sailor moon instead! but onli halfway then ms twang's lesson over.. 'neway got back progress report.. and it sux~

we had psl meeting to take pics but then was postphoned for dunno why.. but then while waiting my flame grp and i were having fun toking to each other and that was the first time dis yr we tok so much :) then waited for ndp to come lor.. i sub arifin and it was great! cos i can crap with simon.. lolx.. it's so fun!! raining halfway when we were at the field praciticing halfway and gotta go back to the hall instead.. and we were divided into grps and it happened tt simon was besides me.. lolx.. so crap and crap and was having fun..

so after ndp.. we return ms tan our progress report cos the principal needa c them.. and yup.. ms tan changed a few of the seating arrangements.. after that walked off with andy, anton and simon.. we crapped and played alot.. haha.. *ooppsss* think i m getting more playful :P

so blessed____________________ 7:31 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2004

CrYiNg

haiz.. juz finished crying but then i still feel like crying.. juz dunno why there are so many things that are flowing in my head.. thinking why ppl keep hurting me.. ppl treating me so unequaly.. no matter how hard i try i still cant get good results and everything.. haiz.. why like tt???!!!!

i m tired.. sometimes juz feel like dying, end dis life and no more worries and everthing.. but tt's a terrible choice.. haiz.. i really dunno wad to do!!! someone helpme!!!

so blessed____________________ 9:15 PM

haiz.. today nt in vey gd mood lor.. 'neway, a-maths started on new topic liao.. the quadratic expression thing.. a little bit blur to understand though.. eng was fun.. haha..news broadcasting thingy and u can c different ppl talking and their face are screened.. haha.. chinese lesson tcher didn come lor.. then gotta do our own stuff... recess i went with denna they all.. then after then saw wang jing.. so went with her.. wah.. her subz all a1 ler! xcept for english lar.. best cls is best cls.. btw.. i juz cant stand her anymore lor!!! haiz.. her l1r5 betta than me but then she like not happy with me cos my maths better than her.. can see she jealous and everything lor.. GO PRACTICCE LAR!!

though i m in top 5 for maths, i m not happy lor.. cos my cls a lot of ppl fail and everthing.. and i top 5 cos i passed both maths.. but then overall.. emaths b4 lor.. amaths c6.. sux rite??
haiz.. gotta go tution later.. tata

so blessed____________________ 2:56 PM

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

yOz.. kinda tired now cos juz reached hm frm sch. eh... i took over evan's duty as e-maths rap.. haha.. it seems tt i m fated to be maths rap for my whole sec sch life... f&n the whole 3 lessons was theory and coursework briefing.. did grp work, andy,simone,mellya,anton and i one grp lor.. then andy and me nv do anything.. we all were busy talking.. haha.. felt guilty for tt though.. then ppcg lesson with 1/7 was betta today.. played people's riddles with them and they seemed to enjoy themselves.. haha.. great lor.. assembly was about mrs chua talking abt values and everything..then 3 o'clock had a psl meeting (shh.. cant tell u all wad is it abt).. then i wanted to look for ms tan to ask for my cls position mah.. but then waited till 4 oclock she nv appear so decided to walk off.. but then saw mrs ho at 1/5 cls room.. juz finished her remedial cls with the sec 1s.. so decided to look for her.. and we talked abt maths lor.. she said i haf the chance to score well in my maths :)
oh ya.. my l1r5 sux lor.. 21 ler!!! arrrggghhhh... cant get into jc!!!! ass hole***

oh ya.. i haf one very cute lame thing to share with u guys.. eheh.. yesterday nite went central to meet my aunt and her family mah.. then my dis 5-yr old cousin asked me if piercing ear is pain.. then i said no.. and so she kept begging her mama to pierce for her too.. then we came across dis shop where she pierced the ears.. she got shocked when the needle got onto the hole and then she cried and she said she want the earings off! haha.. she cried and cried lor.. then came my hse asked ppl if pain or nt.. then she herself said not pain.. wahahaha.. kids jiu shi kids.. erm.. well.. juz a lame joke to share.. :P

so blessed____________________ 5:19 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

*yawnz*
i m so sleepy!! juz took a nap for a while actually.. today arz.. erm.. lemme see.. early in the morning took taxi to sembawang to meet fidah to get my hwk cos she got asmah and unable to come to sch today.. fidah arz.. must take good care of urself hor.. then i chiong to sch taking mrt.. heng not late..
got back my a-maths 3rd test, i passed!! finally i passed my a-maths!! ehehe.. that makes my over all mark pass.. yeye.. chem lessons mrs gan didnt come, so mrs ho took over for one lesson and another lesson mr lee! omg.. we were like panicked lor when he asked us to go down the gym room there.. we all thought gt spot check.. ahha.. we all so scared and everything.. at the end we were there sitting watching him exercising -_-"

so blessed____________________ 5:03 PM

Monday, March 22, 2004

so wad if i cant get 10 pts and below?? it's not ur bloody problem!!! arggghhh!!!! my bloody sista scolded me for slacking around and everything and looked down on me said tt get 25 pts i would have a problem already.. bloody her!!!!! she onli noe how to study.. but to be a good human, she dunno! it makes no difference if u successed in studies but not attitude!!! move hse thingy she never do a single job but sit there and shake legs onli!!! i helped so much okae???

*pissed off*

I curse her tt she will not successed it live!!!!

so blessed____________________ 9:28 PM

tOday sch announced a student frm 3/1 passed away due to an accident.. was rather sad abt it.. hope he/she can rest in peace some where..
today onli had 3 tchers' lessons. physics, chinx and eng.. quite ok lar.. 'neway dis simon kept making me laugh early in the morning on the parade squre.. later ppl tot i crazy then i die arz :x
after sch fidah and i went j8 took pix.. quite cute worz.. :) then went to buy an earing frm perlin silver then we went seperate ways.. i went to tp pop (again!!) to buy divider.. ehehe.. that man not there.. heng arz..
I m so tired today.. dunno why.. -_-" maybe nt used to waking up early again..

ENIZARC

so blessed____________________ 4:55 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2004

today v busy with carrying stuff up n down again.. so tired`! finally moving in officially liao.. the old hse gonna be rented out..
tml sch re-open again and hard work gonna pour in liaox.. hope i can survive thru..
k.. gona Zzz liao.. buaiz guyz

so blessed____________________ 9:48 PM

+Lonely Sunday+

tOday i m so lonely...no one accompanied me to eat lunch, so i went to tp central alone lorx.. at the food court there like stupid.. eating alone.. haiz.. after tt dunno why had the urge to go cd rama lor.. tot the popular guy wun appear.. but who noes when i wanted to go out liao.. then he appeared without me noticing where he appeared frm.. he smiled so sweetly!! heheh.. i m dead meat now :x

so blessed____________________ 3:51 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Just addicted to clay aiken's songs.. haha.. i m so outdated..the album was released last year, but i onli realise him these few days, thanks to simon for sending me his songs.. now i got all the songs from the album in my pc.. burnt it in frm my bro's friend d cd.. maybe i wan to get it one for myself too.. he rawkz sia!

'neway.. this is one of the song tt i like.. check it out!

Clay Aiken-I Survived You

I see the picture clear now
And the fog has lifted
The wool you tried to pull over my eyes was clever
Yeah, your gifted
But you forgot to dot some I's and cross some T's along the way
Im better now despite you baby
I'm stronger these days, stronger

I survived the crash, survived the burn
Survived the worst, yeah baby but I learned
Survived the lies, survived the blues
Almost killed me but I survived the truth
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed
I survived you

I can look in the mirror now
It's been a slow awakening
Haunted by a heart full of you
I couldn't help mistaking
That you could ever care for anyone
Anyone but yourself, hey-yeah
But you would have to have a conscience baby
Good luck, I wish you well

I survived the crash, I survived the burn
Survived the worst, yeah baby but I learned
Survived the lies, survived the blues
Almost killed me but I survived the truth
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed
I survived you

This hearts been torn in two
Cut and bruised from too many bitter endings
I'll be damned if I have thoughts of you
Rain on my new beginning....

so blessed____________________ 9:40 PM

backie frm tution.. today did logarithm and logarithm and logarithm.. getting sick of it man.. jk jk.. haha..

'neway, b4 going for tution waited for dillys outside popular there then walked one round then went to buy her slipper and ate at long john there.. i ate abit only not cos i on diet but i ate my breakfast liao mah.. some more fried rice.. ehehe... then she had to go home first.. i too early so went popular again to buy a story book.. the popular guy is the cashier nearest to the entrance there.. i no choice lor then had to go to him to pay $.. wah piang.. he like nth to sae liao.. haha..i so unpolite give him the money but then he gave me the change so politely.. skarli he scared of me sia.. jk jk.. lalala...

so blessed____________________ 4:09 PM

Friday, March 19, 2004

yOz.. got some feedbacks frm ppl abt no one participating in our cls blog. Maybe true lar they dunno wad to write there.. but then hor.. the webby tt ms twang asked us to do our eng hwk tt one.. they can make new topic and response to them wad.. and they like responded alot lor.. was thinking.. if onli they can do the same to our cls blog...

die le.. i've been slacking and i really mean slacking!!! tell me how?? i jus dun haf the mood to study these days...

so blessed____________________ 10:53 PM

yo yo~ i m so tired! hehe.. went to play badminton with simon, winnie(2/8), hua yee, wang zhao and another guy from amk sec.. i didnt noe i could play.. ehehe.. tot i cant play at all.. anyway.. we played matches and we lost :p
hua yee and the guy are the best man.. ur saliva can droll down when u c them play.. haha..

we played till 5++ then simon and i walked winnie back home first then we took our mrt home.. i was damn tired..

came hm.. mom at the garden sitting at the swing.. so i went up to join her.. haha.. said tt the whole swing will break cos the two of us are too fat.. :p

anyway.. yea the badminton made my day... thanks every1 out there.. and lastly.. simon is so evil.. wahhaha

so blessed____________________ 6:23 PM

early in the morning got irritated by my toopid lil bro.. he is so evil!! made me bathe so early cos needa bring something tt he had left at hm and needa bring to sch.. haiz...

i very 'guai' today.. did so much hmwk.. :p cos sch gonna re-open soon.. haiz..

simon is feeling very down abt his relationship.. hope he will pull thru this tough period and not think of negative things.. well, i didnt noe he is so serious till the conversation we had for last few days..

haiz.. why my cls blog so empty?? no one botherto use it.. now it's like i m sick of it already lor since no one wanna write something.. wad for i write? waste my time onli.. haiz.. haiz.. if onli our cls ppl are appreciative and united like my ex-2/5 cls.. miss those sweet sec 2 life in sch...

so blessed____________________ 11:31 AM

Thursday, March 18, 2004

some times i juz miss him.. miss the way he cares for me.. i still remember i always put negative nick in my msn nick and he will scold me for tt.. he said i shd not put negative nick and blah blah blah.. but now i put and he dun care.. haiz.. 6 mths already n yet the feeling still stays.. maybe forever..

so blessed____________________ 12:06 PM

you noe.. i think i m a useless for being a welfare rap of my cls. i m unable to build up the courage to talk to the class to be responsible abt their work and everything. I m not saying every1 are like tt.. but alot of ppl in cls dun bother abt their work. Are they going to survive if they go on like this?

Maybe i shd really talk to ms tan seriously abt our cls on how we can improve in everything we do. i dun wan our cls to be 'known' as the lousy 3/6 and have no future.. u noe wad.. we can create miracle! who noes one day if our cls ppl study hard, they can get good grade for their o level. we dun need to be in best cls for the best. even if u r in best cls and dun put in effort, ur results also will go down to drain...

I really hope that the whole class will think abt it.. including myself..

so blessed____________________ 10:59 AM

tOday woke up very early and was online chatting with ms twang regarding the eng assignment tt we had to do online. She said that we are developing in the arguments and everything ..

I cried myself to slp yesterday nite.. just dunno why i was so sad and everything.. sometimes i just feel that the whole world is treating me unfairly in some sense.. haiz.. u noe wad.. my heart was feeling so painful tt i wanted to do something silly?? shh.. dun kill me.. just some kind of emotional stuff lar..

Sometimes i just thought that am i a useless person? am i childish and everything? Sometimes i give ppl good advices for their problems but then when i have problems, the advices that i give ppl do not apply to my own problem.. u noe wad i mean?? m i so useless? haiz.. juz feel tt i sux

so blessed____________________ 8:39 AM

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

i m finally blogging! i m still using the old comp lor.. cos still can use.. the new one i havent even touch it yet.. haha.. it's hp newest model.
so today nth much happen lor.. juz went for tution.. actually after tt wanted to go for netball training which started at 2.30 and my tution started at 2.45. but then by the time i finish my tution it ended very late lor.. haiz.. so didnt go for training..
i'm juz feeling troubled over some things.. really dun noe how to sae it and how shd i solve it.. haiz haiz..
time flies sia.. holiday gonna end soon!!! and nite mare coming back again..

so blessed____________________ 8:21 PM

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

tOday boring day..
had maths remedial in sch.. ms tan didnt have time to teach a-maths.. cls was quite nosy lor..
then went to eat mac wif fidah, arifin and elaine.. then elaine actually asked me go orchard with her.. but i didnt wan to cos miss home :p
at the end she pulled arifin along lor..
did some hmwk at hm then slack around.. karaokae.. talked with siblings and all.. quite boring lor..

so blessed____________________ 7:54 PM

Monday, March 15, 2004

Happy holiday to every1 out there.. sorri la for wishing so late.. haha..
so tOday went swimming again, but was lack.. didnt complete my 5 rounds cos was kinda sleepy *yawnz*
Eileen asked me out on tues after the remedial, hf also asked me for the movie marathon.. but dun tink wanna go cos needa rush my hmwk and do some revision.. today gonna stay at home the whole day to slack around first..
tml then start to rush..

so blessed____________________ 11:18 AM

Sunday, March 14, 2004

yoz` didnt update again yesterday cos came home quite late and no mood to update.. so lemme crap again.. hehehe

yesterday ndp we practiced in the hall abt the formation.. nth much lor.. i sub mell..shiting was behind me.. i realised tt shiting is nt tt bad after all.. sorri ting.. then had break and then went down to netball court there to practice the 4 dances again.. went to washroom with mon and i looked at myself so closely.. realised tt i m getting darker and darker.. haiz.. and also face alot of frackers.. hair so dry and blah blah.. decided to take good care of myself..
then went to field to do the whole 4 formations altogether and blah blah..
i went for service again, our church 13th anniversary` praise the lord.. haha.. went to cd rama at tp central there to walk walk first since i was early to meet puay lin at somerset.. tt popular guy was there lor.. then he saw me and always said the same thing "u again~ sian ler" walau eh he.. who wan to see him lor...
ook then reached somerset.. still early.. waited there lor.. met mon with dave.. i was like dunno how to saee lar.. haha.. gonna tease her.. :p
then a whole bunch of deyians and other friends arrived.. we went to buy jessie present.. i juz knew lor that it was her birthday yesterday when christabel said.. bough a journal for her.. hope she will like it..
service was fun! the whole row was occupied by the deyians... pastor benjamin preached on matthew 6:33.. zixin and cindy came too.. zixin was quiet.. didnt talk much and seemed to haf problems lor.. haiz.. dunno wad happen to her.. hope she would be fine..
but i m still very happy to see so many ppl coming to praise the lord on the anniversary :) alot of ppl also came to noe god that day..
after tt went home with esther(a friend).. rained very heavily somemore.
then mom asked me to buy bread at bread talk mah.. she told me wad to buy liao.. but i forgot.. i asked her again then she scolded me.. haiz.. she spoiled my mood lor.. was damn bad mood lor.. anyway.. uncle drove me to center there cos raining then parents went to visit a friend at hospital.. so i went to buy lor and also went cd rama to buy a telephone for my dad.. then the guy there again lor.. said the same thing again.. bleah..

TOday went swimming 5 laps, 10 rounds.. was damn tired lor.. it's been months since i swam lor.. decided to swim everyday to loose wt..
then went out with rieka, her mom and little bro to amk, her mom's aunt hse.. damn bored.. they talked and talked.. dun understand ler.. then shopped around around the neighbour hood.. ave 10 there where me and the *jerk* first met.. ate lunch then went play ground cos rieka's bro wanted to play there.. so boring.. anyway.. bought a "follow me" the cream to wash my face thingy.. hope those frickles will be gone bah...

anyway.. will be changing a new comp.. dis comp dunno wad's wrong also
k la.. enough liaoz.. buaiz

so blessed____________________ 6:28 PM

Friday, March 12, 2004

wohoho` i disepeared yesterday.. haha
lemme crap abt today n yesterday.
yesterday.. ehehe.. had hse warming.. eileen and fidah came with me rite after sch..ehehe.. my mOm asked us to take shower first lor.. then dis eileen didnt bring clothes.. so i lent her to wear.. lent her a skirt and a blouse tt i could not fit in.. wow.. she arz.. looked very mature lor` after tt we went down at the games room to play pool.. fidah and i addicted to it cos we learnt and very fun lor.. hehehe.. then we went to ktv room to sing.. too bad lor.. i dun haf eng songs for fidah to sing.. (sorri fidah :p) eileen and i anyhow sing.. lalala... after simone came.. we played blind mice.. ehehe.. very fun lor.. cos can see all the poses after we on the lite and everything..we went to eat after tt.. then dis eileen went to use my name to book the ktv room again lor.. wah.. then i had to serve some of the guests mah.. so didnt play with them for a while.. ms tan came then then accompanied her to eat at the function room.. wah alot of ppl liao lor.. then my dad came to talk to her.. heng he nv ask much .. onli asked how my result..ehehe.. then ms tan said my maths got improvement` *clap2*
haha.. then we played blind mice with ms tan.. ehehe.. we were crazy..
okok.. after tt went to see my new hse.. they were like so excited and everything.. haha.. then dis eileen said wanna ton in my hse during holiday..
everything ended at 9++ i went to slp straight lor.. and slpt very soundly cos was very very tired.. didnt learn my f&n somemore..
today tchers all gave us holiday hmwk.. can die lor.. lucky i wasnt sleeping in cls.. ehehe.. after sch went to tp with ricky and resham to buy dillys' present and it is so huge!!! thanks resham~ (for something)*Winkz...
ndp training today learnt 4th formation.. very tiring and everything..
okok.. i m very very tired.. wanna rest liao.. buaiz..

so blessed____________________ 7:11 PM

Monday, March 08, 2004

tOday kept raining and weather is so cold.. it is as though crying for me for wad i m feeling recently.
i jus dunno why i m feeling so upset. yi chin asked me why i seldom smile recently and the one she once noe was a very cheerful gal who is happy-go-lucky.. i admit tt.. n i wish too to be like b4.. it seems tt the old me had disepear.. i m the new vina who is so emotional abt everything..
anyway today again a sleepy day for me.. almost fell aslp in clses.. *sorry tcher*
ms tang, our trainee tcher for geo was fun.. i like her lesson..
fidah didnt come today cos she is sick or something.. hope she will recover soon.. i miss her so much!!(shhh.. dun let her noe k? :p)
think tt my dearest darling denna gonna follow me liao.. it's ok.. i dun mind lor.. cos i really think tt she's being used and heart very deeply by ppl.. dat is actually one of the reason why i m sad.
after sch mellya sent me hm.. and i chiong my hmwk lor then pack stuff to my new hse.. i m now here! :p the comp is now upstairs.. and i m moving up tml nite..
i m still in a very upset state.. dunno why.. can burst up any moment lor.. juz now b4 going for chinese tution.. went popular n bought stuffs which cost me $15++ that is one of the way to let myself cheer up and there is one very horrible way to release my sorrow.. which some of u noe.. haiz..

Vina is a changed person now.. she is no more the old vina..

so blessed____________________ 8:30 PM

Sunday, March 07, 2004

so i'm still slacking and didnt really studied.. but i learned the words for chinese liaox...
jus now went to j8 with tina.. took a pic which is very ugly lor.. toopid machine.. cant even see my face.. am i dat black? then anyhow choose and it turned up very not nice!
okok.. enuff.. i spent a lot today.. bought the fish leong compilation which was released so long ago.. it seems that i m outdated :x, then bought the clean and clear washing cream.. and the tissue lor.. i m so addicted to clean and clear now. :) then wad else did i buy? oh a red colour pouch!! i love
red!!..
ppl had been asking me abt my nick in msn--> want u so much-- u're my first love,my onli true love . i put tt cos i really wish tt someone could see tt..*u noe hu*.. but dun tink he will ever see lor.. cos frm wad i noe, he hates me alot and also dun wish to noe abt me..
that *jerK* had hurt me so much... made my life so difficult and everything.. haiz..

so blessed____________________ 4:24 PM

*blink*
it's sunday today`woke up and remembered tt i still had my cme project to do.. my mental block and so juz scribbled a few words and sent it to vivien who will help me print. i m sure ms tan gonna kill me :x

Today i will make sure i study for my chinese test which is tml and also my amaths test on thursday! i dun wan to fail anymore!!!

so blessed____________________ 9:50 AM

Saturday, March 06, 2004

i learnt something abt friendship..
not to force someone to believe abt ur testimonials abt someone if u dun wish to believe. u haf ur own decision wether to believe or nt.
not to judge anybody in one area and haf different judge on them. look at different areas abt them and think wad type of person are they.. should u hang out with them? does they do u any gd? do they wan to brainwash u or wan u to get hurt and that may make them happy?
u shd choose ur friends real carefully.. once u mix with wrong type of friends.. u are ruined.. n i really mean it...

so blessed____________________ 8:41 PM

finally my torturous day is over`
today ndp was really horrible.. we were under the sun and was like burnt lorx.. anyway.. i sub for yilian again.. cos she is sick or something.. hope she will recover soon..:)
then went to haf lunch at j8 long john there with my darling denna and zixin.. zixin asked me wad i learnt last wk from church.. and i said abt the btw moment preached by sister jasmine.. we shd take a break at least a day a week.. to reflect on ur life and also plan for ur life ahead.. spend more time with ur close friends who will listen to ur deepest sorrow and everything..
the problem is.. i dun really think that we smrv are as close as close friends.. maybe the problem lies on me.. i m the one who likes to hang out with different friends.. but of cos i never neglect them.. sometimes i juz dunno how shd i share with them my sorrow.. maybe nobody can solve the problems, who noes? haiz..
but then i m happy with the friends around me.. really.. if u ask me do i prefer my hse or sch.. i would sae sch cos there ppl understand me more than my family.. bleah wad i m writing..
back to real life.. then went for tution.. felt sleepy and had no mood lorx... after that took bus home lorx.. and nth much liao..

so blessed____________________ 4:44 PM

Friday, March 05, 2004

yipeee` tml weekend liao.. at least can rest on sunday.. anyway alot of things happened today.

lessons were fine xcept tt i felt like zZzz again.. after sch had a 15 mins cg with zixin.. it was a very interesting and useful one for me.. at least i learnt something.. after tt went to join fidah they all at canteen.. saw christine and katrina.. i was like sat down asked christine how was the thing.. and she started crying.. haiz.. so things didnt work btw the two of them.. i noe how it felt to be dumped by someone who u love so much.. i xperienced tt b4 too.. but yea.. wad to do? i was with the two of them during ndp break and also always with them.. felt so great :) hope chrisine will feel better as time goes by.. we can live without him.. yea gal? cheer up k?

had a bad news to share.. my bro did badly for his A level.. haiz.. for the first time he got so bad.. but he managed to get into SMU..

so blessed____________________ 7:28 PM

Thursday, March 04, 2004

today nth much happen in sch.. xcept recess tt time after eating.. had a talk with christine abt her problem.. hope tt she can come to a decision tt both of them will nt suffer..
after sch went to bus stop with yi hui,florance and joanna.. all ex-205 gals.. then met mOmmy(simone) and darling(denna) at bus stop and took bus with them.. mOmmy thought something is bothering me.. but i told her there is nth lorz.. true wad.. nth really happen to me.. n ya.. abt the previous entry.. haha.. i was juz too emotional abt the song(frm the bottom of my broken heart).. nth actually happened..

so blessed____________________ 3:21 PM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Feeling very down suddenly :(

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
Artist: Britney Spears
Album: Baby One More Time
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"Never look back," we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead,
emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you know, still I miss you somehow?

Chorus:
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love,
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said,
"please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
we could have worked things out
taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart
through my dreams
through my heart
and I'm back where I started again
never thought it would end

Chorus

You promised yourself
but to somebody else
and you made it so perfectly clear
still I wish you were here

Chorus

"Never look back," we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?

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so blessed____________________ 4:34 PM

Monday, March 01, 2004

mOnday...
dose hu did not turn up for ndp last thursday and saturday were called to go meet mr wong.. and i happened to be one of them.. lucky nth happened cos i got mc. alot of ppl said they had no reason for nt turning up.. at the end they were sent for detention.
pe that time we were made to do 30 push-ups and we still owe mr wong 5 cos we were late for pe due to english lesson and also cos we were taking our own sweet time.. ran one round outside sch and also mrt track one round.. i did not really could take it cos i was coughing away.. mellya too.. she kept vomiting n she looked so pale!
Geo got 9/15 for first test.. i expected myself to fail.. but i passed! clap2.. ehehe.. this shows that i can do it for my geo! gonna aim for an a1..
After sch.. was with fidah in cls 305 doing our maths homework.. actually she was suppose to have meeting for her psl grp.. but waited for a while and dillys said it was cancelled. haiz.
Oh ya.. hx got 10 pts for his o!!!! wow.. he super sia.. it's nt bad already tt he got such a mark cos he is frm na and studied for 5 yrs- now i feel so stress!! so many ppl around me got so good result for their Os... my church fren.. puay got 13.. she improved alot actually cos she said all along she got 20++ but her Os.. wow..
Ok.. i dun wish to pressurise myself.. the onli thing i must do is to study hard!!..

so blessed____________________ 3:55 PM